My Progress Has Stalled and I Need Your Help!

meskew87

I have been using MFP semi-regularly for the last year and a half or so. I had major success at first, dropping weight pretty steadily and feeling better every day. About a year ago it just stopped, even though my habits didn't seem to have changed (although I know they must have). I think it was a combination of losing weight and needing to eat less and excercise more to see the same rate of loss conitnue, and also a bit of losing my motivaiton to log every single thing that I ate. Also, winter meant less out door activity and more sitting and eating. Luckily I did gain anything meaningful, but I was so frustrated!

Since that time I have conitnued to work out and I have completed both Insanity (1.5 times!) and T25 (just about everyday since the day it came out). I lost about 4 lbs with Insanity but my body definitely changed dramatically, and with T25 I have noticed only minimal differences. I enjoy the workouts and love how quick they are, but I'm noestly only sticking with them at this point out of fear of gaining weight!

I would really like to drop another 10-15 lbs. I'm sitting right around 130 right now, which is still a little high for my height (5'2 ish). Truly I'm much less concerned with the number on the scale and much more concerned with how I look and feel overall. I really want to start lifting, and I have a decent base level of knowledge paired with a former pro athlete/Physical Therapy student husband so I feel confident that I can get going but at the moment I am without a gym memberhsip. We moved in August and just haven't gotten around to getting over to the gym to sign up. Our options here are Gold's Gym and Lifetime Fitness, which seem to be worlds apart as far as both amenities and cost. We will probably end up going with Lifetime and hopefully will get that done this week.

Where I really struggle is with what I eat. This post is prompted by today's lunch time fast food/candy bender and the guilt and digestive upset I am now enduring. I let myself get ravenously hungry and then just go bonkers on crap. Doesn't help at all that I started my day with hot chocolate and cookies I get so angry with myself because I know what I need to be doing. I know my own body and I know how I should be fueling it. A good protein rich breakfast, a healthy, light lunch. An easy, filling afternoon snack. Dinner I do fine with because I generally cook at home (and I'm a darn good cook if I may say so myself!) We eat a good variety of veggies and lean protein, healthy fats, and few refined carbs. We do eat out too often and are working on kicking that habit, too. I also know I need to weigh everything and I should stop eating so many of my exercise calories back. My diary says I've been eating at a deficit but I haven't been losing so I know I'm not.

So what I'm getting at here is I don't need advice or suggestions or whatever...I need someone to kick me in the butt and hold me accountable to what I know I want for my health and my body. I need to know that someone is going to actually look at what I'm logging and call me out when I'm eating crap. Right now I will just eat the junk, throw out the "evidence" log it at the end of the day and then pretend it never happened. Its pitiful. You can look at my diary and see the horrible thats been going on as of late.

Anybody up for the challenge? I promise to dutifully hold you accountable in return (if you want me to!)