Disaster Weekend – And today is already going downhill –

noble1987

Ok, so I can positively say that the last 3 weeks of this new ‘life style’ for me has been going so well and I feel that I’ve worked really hard to achieve the stone loss... but I completely messed up at the weekend and today is already a bad start! I feel so down about it, giving up even crossed my mind and that’s crazy I know!

I was so so close to hitting my first mini target before my holiday, but now I feel I’ve really let myself down. I’ve not yet weighed myself to be honest because I’m too scared what it might say... but I know that I feel a lot bigger, bloated, lethargic and Physically fat in myself from uncontrolled binging! I’m jetting off to Spain this Saturday, why did I do this to myself?

To make matter worse, Tom is due to invade my body in a few days, so my cravings are on the edge too – it’s as if I NEED a chocolate rush just to survive today... it’s really not good how I’m feeling.

It all started Saturday morning, kind hearted or not my boyfriend surprised me with a Greggs breakfast pastry after getting his hair cut in our local town. I felt guilty to turn down something he had brought for me - so I tucked in (which sounds like a terrible excuse but it’s true!)
Then, he tells me that he wants to go to Swindon (which is a designer clothes outlet about an hour from us) to get some last minute clothes for our holiday... So off we went! Rushing about at lunch time and failing to find any shops or new agents that sell salads or sandwiches, he somehow managed to sweet talk me into stopping at Harry Ramsten’s for some fish and chips!!! “Oh gosh this is humiliating” ...ok, so I only had a small portion, but IT GETS WORSE!

Feeling rather gutted by what I had just given into when we got home, we noticed that we didnt have much food in and we ended up having an oven pizza and salad for dinner! (Should have just had salad Claire!)

THEN... (Yes there’s more regrettably) ...on Sunday we went to visit my parents and with a lovely cup of tea, my mum puts a plate in front of me with the most beautiful cream cake in sight! Yes, you guessed it - I indulged myself.... *cries “Oh the shame”. I don’t even know why I didnt turn this down? I mean, my will power and motivation to beat temptations and craving has been excellent in the past 3 weeks... so why did I fail at this?! What on earth was I doing, was I giving up so soon?

I feel dreadful today, no mean REALLY i feel gutted... one part of me is saying “it doesn’t matter, pick yourself back up and keep moving!” and another part of me is saying “You have already messed up, might as well walk away with your head in shame now”

Todays been no better - I ate a ham sandwich at lunch followed by a small portion of left of tomato pasta cause I was still hungry. Oh gosh, and I’ve just had some fun size Malteaser’s too! What’s wrong with me? I cant stop, I feel like crying :’( I really have lost the control! It’s like I don’t even think about it anymore, not until after I’ve eaten it anyway!

Thing is, next week - I know my focus is going to be on holiday while my body physically is too... although I’m not much of a alcohol drinking, I’m going to want to join in the party and well, I’m not going to binge on holiday as such, but I know we will have a fair few meals out and BBQ’s too! If I’m finding it hard now, imagine it in Spain!

HELP ME PLEASE

Should I....

A) Go with it, and have a break from MFP until my return from holiday on Thursday 9th September and REGARDLESS of my goals or how much I might have gained, refocus and start a fresh?

Or

Snap out of this, from this point on BE STRONGER and very Sensible about what I eat and drink on holiday?

Please, if anyone has any motivation or support for me – I need to hear it BAD!
I’m so scared I’m losing the battle between being unhappy and fat and the will power to becoming happy and fit!

I NEED YOU GUYS

Much love,
Claire x

Melis25Fit

You need to be strong. You know what to do, now just suck it up, and do it! It's hard, but YOU KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO!

You got this girl!

We're all behind you on this!

Nina74

Claire:

TOM is evil. I find I need to plan "good" tasting/"cheat" foods into my food choices, or else I binge. Secondly, don't let anyone make you feel guilty because they bought you something to eat and you didn't want to eat it. You have the right idea of eating something, but smaller portions. Just do the best you can, forgive yourself and move on. I would recommend not completely jumping ship. So you had a bad day. Get back up on the horse and focus until you go on vaca. It will make TOM less evil/more bareable and will make you feel better about yourself. I know you can do it! Thenyou can go on vacation feeling great that you stayed the course.

Best of luck and be kind to yourself!

kimjoan

We have all been there, no worries just pick up at this moment - you don't have to wait until tomorrow, Monday, etc. You have acknowledged that you tripped up a bit, now get it back on track - you will feel so much better about things. You've got it!

lushy20

keep goin we all have a bad day. and i mean we all but it doesnt mean we are failing.
you know doing this may have helped you kick start your metabolism.
yes you may have over indulaged but its no reason to stop all today tomorrow is a fresh day start again.
alot of people will tell you they have done the same.

as for motivation a lot of people will help you on here.
try reading the success stories it always helps me especially when you read that people have lost over 100lbs

i think to myself if they can do it so can i.

hope you have a great holiday

nomorecomplaining

I've had weekends like this and its a horrible feeling. Its so easy to say 'I'll get back on track in a few days' but the truth is-it will be TWICE as hard when you return because the pounds you have worked so hard to loose will have come back and you will have taken two steps forward and three steps back. Stick with it chica

indybrown

We all have our bad days, weekends or week, like I just had. But today is a new day, I'm back at it again and not worry about it. You have to remember that this IS LIFE...and you will have weekends like this and so it's what you do with it that matters. Start back to your healthy eating today and don't worry about the weekend...what's done is done. When you're on holiday, give yourself little breaks now and then...that's what holidays are for, to relax and enjoy. Then come back and start up again. It's life...enjoy it!!

suejonestx

Decide what you really want long term and then make your decision! It sounds like you may already have made it (to be STRONG!) No one on this site can decide for you! And, a little diet cheating is OK, as long as you get back on track.

billgiersberg

It sounds like you are focusing on what you feel are all the bad things over the weekend. It's possible that focusing on that will cause you to build on that and one bad thing will lead to another. Eventually you might give up all together. I'd suggest it sounds like you had a nice weekend with a few minor dietary setbacks. Today is a fresh day and the only thing you can change is what you do today. What shall you eat now and what exercise shall you do now. Tomorrow will be another fresh day and the one after that. After a week, if you see a trend, make the necessary adjustments to reach your long term goal. Always have your eyes set on the long term goal and not the short term setbacks.

Behavior_Modification

You said: one part of me is saying “it doesn’t matter, pick yourself back up and keep moving!”

That is exactly right my dear. This is a lifestyle change and part of that lifestyle is occasionally indulging in the breakfast pastry and cream cake. And part of this lifestyle is learning from your failures and finding out for you what works and what doesn't work. So maybe you can't say no to some things, but maybe next time you go on a day outing, you'll pack some healthful snacks in your purse for later. How "on board" is your bf w/ this new behavior? Maybe if you talk to him a bit more about how important this is to you he'll be more helpful too by not bringing you sugar for a gift and flowers instead, or maybe even saying it would be okay for you to pack lunches for the both of you or something like that. Just ideas.

Don't beat yourself up because overall you're doing a great job. TOM sucks and the fact that fat stores estrogen sucks and our hormones really screw up our whole system sometimes.

Have a wonderful vacation! Be mindful of your choices, and just remember that this is a lifestyle that you will have to practice over and over too. It WILL get easier!

beesareyellow

What a timely post!
I just got back from a one week vacation in the US. Because it was in a touristy beach area, finding healthy food was so very hard.
It was always good at breakfast ( cereal and fruit ) but after that FORGETABOUTIT!
Lunch was usually fast food or hot-dogs and chips. Dinner was sit down restaurants including seafood buffets and steak houses. One night we went to what was supposed to be a great seafood place. OMG, what we got was heaping plates of deep fried everything. Thankfully, we actually did not eat much of it because it was disgusting.

So, what to do? Well, after breakfast the family went down to the beach and had a good 30 to 45 minutes of swimming in the ocean.
After lunch, laps in the pool for at least 30 minutes.

Just got home, TERRIFIED of stepping on the scale. Well, turns out I only gained one pound ( 1.2 actually). I am soooo happy.

Moral of this story, have fun, let your hair down and enjoy your vacation. Instead of obsessing about what your are doing wrong, concentrate on what you can do right. Exercise every chance you get: walk, swim, window shop, sight see on foot etc..

Make healthy choices when you can, eat smaller portions when you can't.
Hope this helps, good luck!

Dancerten

I completely agree with everyone else. Don't give up!! Don't let that little devil on your shoulder win! It's much harder to start back up after a long break than a short one. Keep at it, you can do it!

noble1987

Thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart - your support and kind words (...and a kick in the *kitten*) is exactly the kind of encouragment I needed to help me pick myself back up and too stop being such an idiot!

I love you guys - its me, my belly and you lot!

Thank you

Claire x