New: JUST NOT MY SIZE

retrohs

Hello. I'm joining this site today because I've heard a lot of good things about it. There are a lot of people in my community who are using it and who are having pretty good success. Currently, I am the largest person I know within my peer group. I live in a fairly fit society where most people I know are big into staying healthy, and those who are not still manage to keep their weight down. I've been larger than most for several years now and even though it bothered me a little it never really hit home. Until today. I knew I was putting more weight on but I didn't realize how fast and how much. I maintained a size 16 for about four years and had settled there. Then about two years ago I started putting on a few pounds. Didn't think much about it, and then the next thing you know I was in an 18. I stayed in an 18 less than a year. I can't even button them. I'm now in a 20W and today was the day that I broke down and bought a new pair of jeans in that size instead of wearing sweat pants everywhere. I feel like I've been stabbed in the heart. I'm short (5'3") and have a very tiny frame. I shouldn't weigh much more than 120 pounds. I'm currently 211. I feel my body shutting down, and it's time to jump start it back to life. I'm looking for women like myself who are struggling in the worst way. Who are truly at rock bottom or who have been there and have pulled themselves out. I need help. I can't live like this much longer. I fear I'll die. I can't even walk though the mall w/out becoming exhausted & short of breath.
FYI: I have scanned some post and I see that there are a lot of people that feel like people (like myself) who don't have profile pics are shady. I promise you I'm not. I just don't want to have to explain myself to anyone in my community. There are a bunch of people I know on here and I just don't want to go through that. If I fail...I want it to be my failure and not something I'm constantly reminded of when I run into someone.

akoorn1982

welcome!

gmthisfeller

Glad to have you here. I am not a woman (well, duh!), but I started about where you are 209 lbs in January 2013. I am now at 144 lbs, and I only have 9 lbs to go.

You may be the largest person in your peer group today, but you will give that title to another if you stay here. You can do this!

Saramelie

Welcome!
Started my weight loss at 232, scared of dying at a young age also. My dad died of a heart attack at 46 so.... wake up call, ding, ding, don`t want to end up in a coffin at 40! You can do this, just put your mind too it and go, go, go!!!

LoyalAngel16

I understand where you are coming from, expect I have always been big. Stayed in about a 20-22 for the longest, then eventually ended up in a 26. I am 5'4 and got all the way up to 315 pounds. It was devastating for me. I didn't realize how big I actually was at the time. I am now weighing 251 pounds. I still have a long way to go, but would be happy to get to 180 pounds. You are welcome to add me if you would like.

nutmegoreo

Deactivated already. That is too bad. It really is a good community for support and reaching your goals. Hopefully, she will come back, read this, and reactivate.

melaniecheeks

Welcomes bloated! Try not to focus too much on one number- I'm 5'2, currently aiming for 130,. You'll find lots of inspiration on here!

MaryJane_8810002