Downward Spiral

Thomas1992h

So....I need to rant/moan and express some kind of emotion.

I'm on a downward spiral....I've been diagnose with depression, something I used to think I would never have! Since being told that I feel like I've lost control of everything, everything that is apart from my weight (or so I though).

I've felt like in the past year the only thing I have been able to fully control is my weight, and since being told I had depression, I wanted to control that even more. However more recently my weight has been fluctuating a lot i.e. one week I've lost 9lbs other weeks I've lost 1lb then I've gained. I'm not sure how I'm losing weight as I appear to be eating more food then normal and just being a complete pig, afterwards of course I feel guilty for putting myself in the position of eating a load of c**p.

With Christmas approaching my stress levels are now through the roof-regarding my weight, I fear about xmas day, feel like I'm going to gain all the weight I lost and I am just generally scared! I know it sounds silly to get wound up over something so small.

Anyway my gym habit is starting to fall, I just feel like I'm losing interest in my weight and the gym. So IF anyone reads this, firstly thanks for letting me rant. If you have any advice please post or message me.

Much Appreciated!!

robbienjill

Been there! Are you taking meds? That was the biggest notice for weight gain with me. Pick yourself up and keep moving.