I'm obese? Since when?

heidinelson222
heidinelson222 Posts: 1
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I'm almost 26. Female. Californian.
I'm a chef. When you haven't eaten for twelve hours on your feet- you WILL eat five croissants, without hesitating.

According to my BMI, I am obese. Barely, but obese. I FEEL obese. I never ever weigh myself, but I did the other day.
At nearly 5'5'', I am 184lbs. Ridiculous.
I am literally one pound away from the heaviest I've ever been. At 17, I weighed 185lbs and was super depressed. Somehow, without any effort, I was a size 0 and 115lbs within two years. For some reason my body fluctuates- well, it used to. I've been 135-185 since.

My dad committed suicide nearly two months ago. He was my best friend, and the shock of his death will haunt me forever. Unfortunately, i have turned to food and "not caring" about my body. I know I've gained 15lbs-ish since his death- and now I am back at my highest weight of my life.

Obviously, this adds to my depression and hopelessness.

I have a lot of health issues [i.e.; asthma, premature arthritis from cooking, a currently dislocated collar bone, a fractured right foot and I possibly have Crohn's Disease]. These hurdles seem too high.

When I was in 8th grade, i was the chubby girl. I wasn't very chubby- barely so- but my extremely fit school in Nor. California wouldn't tolerate my slightly being overweight. I quickly developed all sorts of eating habits and disorders.. when I started HS as a freshmen- I somehow got down to 120lbs. Lucky me.

I don't want to have diabetes and all the other health issues that made my dad think he couldn't keep on going. I'm pretty sure he killed himself because he felt hopeless about his obesity and various other health problems.

I want to live and be there for my family. I want to lose 35+ lbs and get down to a "normal" BMI.

I used to be an athlete. I used to run for miles. I am hoping that this website helps me. i have seen it work for others.

Wish me luck- and don't be afraid to reach out!

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  • RedRita32
    RedRita32 Posts: 321 Member
    I'm sorry about you losing your dad ! I lost my Mom to suicide as well...

    I have about 35 pounds to lose too maybe we can be pals! :flowerforyou: I've already lost 35 pounds but I can always use more supportive friends! I log in everyday and comment often :drinker:

    I wish you best of luck on your weight loss journey and remember it's one day at a time! If you mess up.. don't give up..just regain control and start again!!

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