Old soul?

squishybarb

I am not religious, and I don’t know what the true definition of spiritual is, so I won’t claim to be that either. This is NOT a religious debate – I don’t want to step on toes or offend anyone.. I know how touchy some subjects are. With that being said.. I feel like my “soul” is old, and sometimes it’s frustrating and tiresome. Just looking to see if anyone can relate.:blushing:

I know the word “soul” is usually connected to a religion or spirituality – but I don’t know what else to call it. Maybe it’s just my mind. Whatever it is, mine feels older than the majority of people I know. And I don’t mean that in a bad way... I just feel like I need some input that I can’t seem to find or that I’m looking for something that doesn’t even exist. Sometimes I feel like I belong somewhere else. Where? No clue. But as I said, not in a bad way, just different. Maybe I sound insane.

I don’t do drugs, I don’t drink, I don’t party, I don’t enjoy the college life..:yawn: I fear a loss of control so anything that alters my state of mind and ability to control myself is something I stay away from.. I don’t find joy in a lot of the same things people my age do. The little things make me happy and I’m easily satisfied, but I don’t get overly excited often.. it’s as if I’ve experienced things before, even though I know I haven’t. :grumble:

Do not get me wrong, I am a happy. I’m always happy and positive and motivated. I’m not sad or depressed; I’m rational, level-headed, and realistic. I don’t think I have any chemical imbalances, other than moderate anxiety when I feel as if I’m not able to control the situation I’m in.. And I don’t even know if it’s truly a chemical imbalance or a learned behavior of mine.

My mom’s the free spirit, and my dad’s the “stick in the mud,” if you will. They raised me together, so I’ve had balance in my life. I don’t assume it’s how I’ve been raised. I was never sheltered, really. I just chose to be a home-body. I don’t desire extravagant things, I’m not very materialistic. I would love to live in the country, away from people. The only thing I really desire is a home, satisfying job, and a family. :smooched:

But I feel like I’m heavy inside. I wonder about things that most 22 year olds could care less about. Sometimes I just lie in bed and think about things that I’ll never know the answer to – but I still like to wonder anyway. I get told I’m too mature for my age and I’m too ahead of the game. Or that I’m boring, and too deep, or I'll "worry myself to death."

Does anyone else feel like their “(whatever word you want to use)” is older or more mature than “normal”? :bigsmile:

DainaLC

Look up the meaning of Star Children. It may look familiar to you. :flowerforyou:

TwinkieDong

Look up the meaning of Star Children. It may look familiar to you. :flowerforyou:

is this the same as RH-?

squishybarb

Look up the meaning of Star Children. It may look familiar to you. :flowerforyou:

How odd... I used to constantly say "It smells like death," when my aunt was dying of lung cancer... she died on 1-2-2003 and after she died, I could still smell it around certain people, I always creeped my mom out.. The street lights on my fiance's road constantly go out when I drive past them, I was always told it was becauase the lights were too bright (makes no sense - I just didnt really care), 9:11 follows me around... it'll be 9:11 PM, the page number will be 911, or some weird crap like that .. or I'll talk about someone and then hear from them or run into them within a few days... or I'll have a dream that someone's dying and then someone will tell me they're pregnant. I just always thought I was a weird-o!

Maybe I am still just a weirdo though... :laugh: :drinker: We'll never know.

Thanks for your input... now I'm going to have to read a book on it.

Timshel_

I am not religious, and I don’t know what the true definition of spiritual is, so I won’t claim to be that either. This is NOT a religious debate – I don’t want to step on toes or offend anyone.. I know how touchy some subjects are. With that being said.. I feel like my “soul” is old, and sometimes it’s frustrating and tiresome. Just looking to see if anyone can relate.:blushing:

I know the word “soul” is usually connected to a religion or spirituality – but I don’t know what else to call it. Maybe it’s just my mind. Whatever it is, mine feels older than the majority of people I know. And I don’t mean that in a bad way... I just feel like I need some input that I can’t seem to find or that I’m looking for something that doesn’t even exist. Sometimes I feel like I belong somewhere else. Where? No clue. But as I said, not in a bad way, just different. Maybe I sound insane.

I don’t do drugs, I don’t drink, I don’t party, I don’t enjoy the college life..:yawn: I fear a loss of control so anything that alters my state of mind and ability to control myself is something I stay away from.. I don’t find joy in a lot of the same things people my age do. The little things make me happy and I’m easily satisfied, but I don’t get overly excited often.. it’s as if I’ve experienced things before, even though I know I haven’t. :grumble:

Do not get me wrong, I am a happy. I’m always happy and positive and motivated. I’m not sad or depressed; I’m rational, level-headed, and realistic. I don’t think I have any chemical imbalances, other than moderate anxiety when I feel as if I’m not able to control the situation I’m in.. And I don’t even know if it’s truly a chemical imbalance or a learned behavior of mine.

My mom’s the free spirit, and my dad’s the “stick in the mud,” if you will. They raised me together, so I’ve had balance in my life. I don’t assume it’s how I’ve been raised. I was never sheltered, really. I just chose to be a home-body. I don’t desire extravagant things, I’m not very materialistic. I would love to live in the country, away from people. The only thing I really desire is a home, satisfying job, and a family. :smooched:

But I feel like I’m heavy inside. I wonder about things that most 22 year olds could care less about. Sometimes I just lie in bed and think about things that I’ll never know the answer to – but I still like to wonder anyway. I get told I’m too mature for my age and I’m too ahead of the game. Or that I’m boring, and too deep, or I'll "worry myself to death."

Does anyone else feel like their “(whatever word you want to use)” is older or more mature than “normal”? :bigsmile:

You sound like you will go all Brittney or Miley soon.

squishybarb

I am not religious, and I don’t know what the true definition of spiritual is, so I won’t claim to be that either. This is NOT a religious debate – I don’t want to step on toes or offend anyone.. I know how touchy some subjects are. With that being said.. I feel like my “soul” is old, and sometimes it’s frustrating and tiresome. Just looking to see if anyone can relate.:blushing:

I know the word “soul” is usually connected to a religion or spirituality – but I don’t know what else to call it. Maybe it’s just my mind. Whatever it is, mine feels older than the majority of people I know. And I don’t mean that in a bad way... I just feel like I need some input that I can’t seem to find or that I’m looking for something that doesn’t even exist. Sometimes I feel like I belong somewhere else. Where? No clue. But as I said, not in a bad way, just different. Maybe I sound insane.

I don’t do drugs, I don’t drink, I don’t party, I don’t enjoy the college life..:yawn: I fear a loss of control so anything that alters my state of mind and ability to control myself is something I stay away from.. I don’t find joy in a lot of the same things people my age do. The little things make me happy and I’m easily satisfied, but I don’t get overly excited often.. it’s as if I’ve experienced things before, even though I know I haven’t. :grumble:

Do not get me wrong, I am a happy. I’m always happy and positive and motivated. I’m not sad or depressed; I’m rational, level-headed, and realistic. I don’t think I have any chemical imbalances, other than moderate anxiety when I feel as if I’m not able to control the situation I’m in.. And I don’t even know if it’s truly a chemical imbalance or a learned behavior of mine.

My mom’s the free spirit, and my dad’s the “stick in the mud,” if you will. They raised me together, so I’ve had balance in my life. I don’t assume it’s how I’ve been raised. I was never sheltered, really. I just chose to be a home-body. I don’t desire extravagant things, I’m not very materialistic. I would love to live in the country, away from people. The only thing I really desire is a home, satisfying job, and a family. :smooched:

But I feel like I’m heavy inside. I wonder about things that most 22 year olds could care less about. Sometimes I just lie in bed and think about things that I’ll never know the answer to – but I still like to wonder anyway. I get told I’m too mature for my age and I’m too ahead of the game. Or that I’m boring, and too deep, or I'll "worry myself to death."

Does anyone else feel like their “(whatever word you want to use)” is older or more mature than “normal”? :bigsmile:

You sound like you will go all Brittney or Miley soon.

Funny, but absolutely not.

Timshel_

You sound like you will go all Brittney or Miley soon.

Funny, but absolutely not.

I know a lot of people who become old souls for various reasons. For my, by the time I was coming out of high school I was done with doing all the stuff people brag about doing in college, so college was pretty focused for me. And by the time I was getting married I was ready to settle down like older people do. So I get it.

It really relates to internal maturity and desires.

Just do you.

greenhudler

Look up the meaning of Star Children. It may look familiar to you. :flowerforyou:

Yep, I was personally going to mention indigo and crystal children

ekz13

yep, it's possible

squishybarb

You sound like you will go all Brittney or Miley soon.

Funny, but absolutely not.

I know a lot of people who become old souls for various reasons. For my, by the time I was coming out of high school I was done with doing all the stuff people brag about doing in college, so college was pretty focused for me. And by the time I was getting married I was ready to settle down like older people do. So I get it.

It really relates to internal maturity and desires.

Just do you.

No worries.. I don't offend easily or anything. lol. Maybe my brain was just hard-wired to be an old fart from the beginning. Plus, I wouldn't look good naked on a wrecking ball, or bald.

Timshel_

I wouldn't look good naked on a wrecking ball, or bald.

Just got get yourself out of the box...and send pics when ya do.

squishybarb

I wouldn't look good naked on a wrecking ball, or bald.

Just got get yourself out of the box...and send pics when ya do.

I've been much more "out of the box" since I met my fiance. Before him I questioned myself a little. I spent too much time alone. He just drags me out and around - and I've noticed without him I still like to meander around. I like being in public around people, but alone.. in public. If that makes any flipping sense at all. lol

FerretBuellerr

OP, you're not alone.

I just turned 23 a few weeks ago, and I feel so much older than I am and relatively disconnected to everything else my other 20-something friends take interest in. It's really difficult to explain, almost like I was born in the wrong era.

But it's nice to know I'm not alone with this feeling :flowerforyou:

inktink

I feel the same way a lot of the time, too. I've felt like an old soul since I was a child. You are not alone

TheGymGypsy

I'm 20 and I am literally in the same boat as you.

squishybarb

OP, you're not alone.

I just turned 23 a few weeks ago, and I feel so much older than I am and relatively disconnected to everything else my other 20-something friends take interest in. It's really difficult to explain, almost like I was born in the wrong era.

But it's nice to know I'm not alone with this feeling :flowerforyou:

I have googled "I feel like I live in the wrong era" maybe 10 times. lol. I completely agree!

climbing_trees

(Sorry if this is inappropriate, but I just wonder)

Have you ever considered an experience with hallucinogenic drugs?

squishybarb

I'm glad y'all can relate.. makes me happy to know I'm not as alone as I thought I was! My fiance is very outgoing, loves social situations, lots of people. We balance each other out very well, but in the beginning it was a true struggle to do anything and I got burnt out very quickly. I still need time to "re-energize" by being alone and quiet. I tell him he gets his "battery charge" from others, while I have to get mine from peace and quiet. I'm thankful for him though, he's shown me so much and has really been a huge help with my anxiety.

Yay old souls! :flowerforyou: :smooched:

squishybarb

You say you fear a loss of self control, but I think you might really enjoy and benefit from an experience with hallucinogenic drugs.

As possible as that may be, it won't ever, and I mean ever, happen. Not only due to my personal feelings about them, but because I'm a criminal justice major in college and I can't afford to risk my career after I've worked so hard.

I saw your edit. And no, I would never consider it. I refuse to take any type of medication for anxiety, even when it was severe. I hate taking pills, period. Even for a headache, I have to be unable to function before I'll take anything. It just wont happen.

climbing_trees

You say you fear a loss of self control, but I think you might really enjoy and benefit from an experience with hallucinogenic drugs.

As possible as that may be, it won't ever, and I mean ever, happen. Not only due to my personal feelings about them, but because I'm a criminal justice major in college and I can't afford to risk my career after I've worked so hard.

That's valid. I respect that!

Just brought it up because I know a few people who have described themselves similar to you, and they've had successful journeys. Unlocking parts of themselves, making new connections to their environment, etc~

In no way did I mean to assume anything about you so I apologize if my comment was out of line. >__<"

SoDamnHungry

My mom calls me an old soul. I must agree.

seltzermint555

I'm 20 and I am literally in the same boat as you.

y'all goin' fishing?

SoDamnHungry

I'm glad y'all can relate.. makes me happy to know I'm not as alone as I thought I was! My fiance is very outgoing, loves social situations, lots of people. We balance each other out very well, but in the beginning it was a true struggle to do anything and I got burnt out very quickly. I still need time to "re-energize" by being alone and quiet. I tell him he gets his "battery charge" from others, while I have to get mine from peace and quiet. I'm thankful for him though, he's shown me so much and has really been a huge help with my anxiety.

Yay old souls! :flowerforyou: :smooched:

This sounds classically introverted. I'm also one.

neandermagnon

you don't have to be the same as everyone else. And feeling like you don't fit in just means you're not around like-minded people. Maybe you haven't met many (or even any) people who are on your wavelength. Not everyone likes partying and the like, some are more introverted and prefer quieter activities. You probably don't notice them much because they're quieter. Anyway, you'll probably feel better when you find others who are more like you.

And just be yourself and don't change who you are to fit in. People who really care about you will love you for the things that make you different.

bkw99508

Are you by chance an only child?

I was raised an only child and I felt like you for a very long time. I'm now 45 and think maybe now I am starting to feel the age I always was meant to be. Sounds silly I know. But then.....there are times that I feel as if I'm capturing some of the "lost" age of my youth.

PolkaDot_Princess

YES YES YES!! Dont look at it as a bad thing, it sounds like you're mature and realistic. I was also in a hurry for a family. When my college age friends were our partying i was at home hanging with my parents. I met my husband when i was 21 and have been with him since.

I used to get a little depressed about life and things like that when i was young, like i didn't fit into this world but i found my place in the simple things.

Sounds like we're a little bit kindred :-) you are not alone.

squishybarb

That's valid. I respect that!

Just brought it up because I know a few people who have described themselves similar to you, and they've had successful journeys. Unlocking parts of themselves, making new connections to their environment, etc~

 Thanks. It’s not for me.. I seriously can’t even have a drink out in public with feeling intense paranoia and start panicking because I swear I’m going to lose my marbles right there and I won’t be able to save myself if something goes wrong. I could never do drugs, lol. My mind just couldn’t handle it. I respect whatever people do in their own time as long as they’re not hurting other people. But thanks for the thoughtfulness!


But thanks you guys! I’m introverted… but there’s this “new” classification called… ambiverted, I think?? Something like that. I fit that to a T. It’s perfect! Why we have the intense need to fit in, is beyond me. I know it’s just human nature.. meh!

squishybarb

Are you by chance an only child?

I was raised an only child and I felt like you for a very long time. I'm now 45 and think maybe now I am starting to feel the age I always was meant to be. Sounds silly I know. But then.....there are times that I feel as if I'm capturing some of the "lost" age of my youth.

I am not an only child. I do have a brother who's 13 years older than me. But my dad has 10 brothers and sisters, so our family is huuuuuuge. :bigsmile: