22 years old with 40kgs to loose

teandvodka

hello everyone

my name is Rachel and I'm 22 years old (I'm French so forgive me if I make mistakes haha)

I signed up on this website since its January, new year, new resolutions, blablabla .... The thing is I've always been trying to lose weight but I always seem to give up. There's periods (weeks or months) where I try to go on a diet, take attention to what I eat, but I always give up. I have a real trouble staying motivated. I decided to really try and do it this time, because it's getting more and more annoying for me.
For example, a few days ago, when I was trying on dresses for a wedding I'm going to this summer, my mom told me " Ugh, you really gained weight these few months, you should pay attention" I know she means well, but it really hurts me, because I know I gained weight, it's my body, I notice it, and her saying it like that in front of my sister, it really hurts...

Anyway, I don't really know hot much I weigh currently haha, I havent weight myself in a reaaaally long long time, but I guess I must me between 90-100kg (so 190-220 lbs I think).

I hope I'll find of MFP the motivation I need, because I really wanna succeed this time !! My first goal is to be at 60 kgs (132 lbs) because I'm 5'2 (160 cms).

My other problem with food, that's a bad habit I need to change : I either eat too much, or I starve myself. When I start eating a big meal, like pasta for example, then my appetite is up, and I wanna eat other things. That's why, when I tried loosing wheight before, I failed : last year (january also haha) I almost stopped eating, I ate nothing (just cucumbers, or small things, and just 1 meal a day) and I lost 11lbs in 4 weeks. But one time, I was really too much hungry so went to MacDonalds, and my "diet" was over, I didn't care, I began eating junk again.

I know I shouldn't want to loose weight fast, because I know it doesn't work in the long run ....


Anyway, please add me if you are a 20-smthing and you want a diet buddy !! I really wanna talk to someone going through the same stuff as me, we could talk by email or whatever ....