Seeking the balance

norcaligirl72

Hello all... I have logged in after many many months on hiatus, gaining probably ten or more pounds and back at the gym after almost two months. I have had the most stressful time in my life and I need to let go of some stuff, trust and find my balance.

I have accepted that for me to not only feel better but fit into the clothes I need to exercise. However, I am accepting that I don't have to work out for an hour. It can be 20 -30 minutes four times a week, even if it's just a walk. I have also accepted that for my body I have to lift weights. I hate it. The only thing I like about exercise is knowing my body needs it to feel better (my knees are killing me with 60 lbs extra on my frame) and to wear all my cute clothes without being in pain over jeans too tight or my back and tummy bulging out.

I have accepted that eating healthy has to happen daily. I have accepted that wheat and dairy can no longer be a part of my diet because I feel horrible when I have them. I have accepted that eating any kind of grains, corn or rice, are not the things my body reacts to positively. And I am really OK with that. Actually that's the easiest part for me. Sugar...I love it. I love sweet anything. Even eating healthy I'd much rather have sweet fruit than not sweet veggies. I have gotten used to stevia in my tea (been off caffeine for over eight months). I have accepted that there are gonna be days where I make a pan of gluten free brownies or a flourless chocolate cake and I am gonna eat at least half of it and am not gonna beat myself up over it.

I have also accepted that I don't want to count calories and keep track of everything I eat. I want to be able to find my balance, like "normal" people. I wanna eat when I am hungry and start listening to my body and stop eating when I am full.

I have accepted I don't want to weigh myself again. I can't be a slave to that number. I am going to gauge my progress on my clothes and how I look naked.

Is anyone else in the same frame of mind as me? I would love your experience and what has happened for you to find your balance and what has happened since you have.

Thank you.

KalieHudson

Welcome back! I have been on my journey for about 2 years now and it been an ongoing process. I have changed a lot of what I used to eat overtime and it's gotten easier. I enjoy supporting fellow MFP friends. I have sent you a friend request. Anyone feel free to add me!