Hello from Iowa!

druidkat7

Hey, everyone, I'm Kat...

I'm here because I think I'm finally getting the hang of not just eating healthy, but living healthy...I've made some discoveries about myself that are pushing me to not only get fit once and for all, but to really think about the kind of career that's going to keep me fit and healthy, and not throw me for a loop, stress-wise.

I gotta admit, part of my internal stress is living with my very unhealthy parents. One's diabetic and the other one's dangerously close to it. And neither of them seem too interested in giving exercise a shot. Yes, exercise as a diabetic can be potentially hazardous. Even as a non-diabetic I understand this. But I have a friend in a town 40 miles away from me who took her diabetic condition by the horns, and with diet AND consistent exercise, turned it all around and she's no longer diabetic!

I just think my parents no longer really have the true will--if they ever did--to be healthy. And I know I do not want to be like this. I am only 35 and still got plenty of life ahead of me...a dream career I want to pursue SO badly...how can I pursue it if I am unhealthy? I was born hypothyroid, so that's one challenge I must face. The other challenge I am facing is "deprogramming" myself and separating myself from my parents' unhealthy thinking.

And it's a new kind of separation anxiety...a kind of separation anxiety that makes me realize just how much my thinking has changed in the last three or so years. It's a weird kind of fear--a fear of not being accepted by my own parents just because I refuse to eat the same crap they do, or follow the crazy "logic" that artificial sweeteners are okay--when many studies have shown they cause people to GAIN weight. And I refuse to use artificial sweeteners anyway because I don't like their taste and they give me headaches.

All these new changes for me in my thinking, my behaviors are coming to a head and I know I've GOT to find myself some new companions...companions that will support me in my living-healthy goals. I love my parents...but I do not love how toxic they are, physically, or the foods they bring into the house.

I can feel our lifestyles clashing without them even saying a word. I'm aiming higher and higher and they're not aiming at all...except just to get through each day, each doctor appointment...again, I don't want to live like that.

I know I'm saying all this stuff as an "intro" to who I am, where I am...kinda "unloading..." but I'm really in need, as I said, of new companions, a new "Fellowship." (Any Tolkien geeks, here?)

I feel like if my parents don't want to destroy their own personal Rings of Doom, that is their path...but I want to destroy MINE, dang it! And I will do whatever it takes to get there!

Just as I hope to find support here, I will, in turn, cheer you all on, too!