That Unsettling Feeling Won't Go Away

albayin

I know this doesn't sound very healthy but it's truly the state of my mind from time to time. I have wanted to be thin all my life but I have been able to reach that goal. I am within the normal range but on the higher end per BMI (I know BMI is lame, ok). Anyway, I have always watched my calories, exercise routinely, lifting, running, walking, yoga, whatever I can, but I always have this bad feeling on the back of my head that if I stop doing what I am doing, I will gain weight, and become overweight...I am so afraid of stepping on the scale and finding out I am heavier than yesterday, last month or last year...

Anyway I know this is not healthy but don't know what to do. I talked to professional as well but there was much help there...so you see I am very stuck.

anybody else feels the same way? and how do you cope with it?:flowerforyou:

albayin

I feel so exhausted from counting calories, and watching the labels...thinking why I am not losing weight...

Mizeri

I'm in the same place you are right now. I had just reached my goal weight before Christmas and when Christmas Break was over I had gained two pounds! It sucked because I know actually get anxiety from the thought of doing anything that allows me to not stick to my normal routine. The best way I found to cope was to tell a friend and have them tell me when I'm being obsessive or not. It even got to the point that my roommate hid my scale because I would get depressed if I weighed myself and there was even the slightest fluctuation.

Francl27

Well it's because it's partly true. If you stop being so active and don't decrease your food intake, you WILL gain weight. It's a fact. It actually sounds pretty healthy that you're aware of it.

albayin

Well it's because it's partly true. If you stop being so active and don't decrease your food intake, you WILL gain weight. It's a fact. It actually sounds pretty healthy that you're aware of it.

thank you for your reply. the thing is I feel very tired of watching my calories all the time...But if I slip, I have to deal with the frustration and my fear of gaining weight worsens. I can't stay on top of this stuff all the time and slip does happen. I have a few days when I decide to just eat normal, not counting calories but of course, the consequence makes me sadder. I think I am in depression...

albayin

I'm in the same place you are right now. I had just reached my goal weight before Christmas and when Christmas Break was over I had gained two pounds! It sucked because I know actually get anxiety from the thought of doing anything that allows me to not stick to my normal routine. The best way I found to cope was to tell a friend and have them tell me when I'm being obsessive or not. It even got to the point that my roommate hid my scale because I would get depressed if I weighed myself and there was even the slightest fluctuation.

I hear you. I believe I am obsessed, seriously.

megpumpkin

Oh honey, you're not alone. I promise.

This might be unpopular to say around here (this is a weight- loss forum after all) but you are not your weight. Even if you get heavier, you are still a person of value and worth and you'll never lose that, no matter what the scale says. It's taken me a long time to learn that and I still struggle with it, but I promise you, you are not alone.

albayin

And I know I shouldn't compare myself to others at any time. But believe me when you are around of a group of size 0s, it's getting hard to keep cool head...I belong to a culture group in which most women are small and thin, US 00 or xxs is too big for them...Now you see how I feel...

kimosabe1

I am constantly feeling that way and stress over the obvious correct choices but this is so I can live & be healthy with type one diabetes close to 30 years.....

albayin

I am constantly feeling that way and stress over the obvious correct choices but this is so I can live & be healthy with type one diabetes close to 30 years.....

I feel for you and happy for you to make the right choice...

However, sometimes I wonder if I feel I suffer so much being obsessed with food and exercise, does that override the hope of a long healthy life? At some point, life is no joy for me....