My Story

crazy_Meggerz

CW: 177
GW #1: 160 by my 10 year wedding anniversary (April 10th)
GW#2: 150 by Summer 2014 (Bikini Here I come)


As I scroll thru all these pictures and stories of all you beautiful and strong people.... it brings me to tears... it is so motivating to me.

I have not liked the way my body looks for a long time now. I use to be the "skinny" one my whole life. Even after two pregnancies I still stayed thin.

Then in 2009 I had a complication in my third pregnancy and we had to end it half way through. This put me through a lot of emotions and stress. I now look back and see that was my turning point in my weight. I had gained some weight while pregnant. I was always about 130 since puberty. When the pregnancy was end for medical reasons, I was about 150. From then on I went up.

In Aug 2010 I quit smoking cold turkey. I am not sure if that had anything to do with it, but from August to new years eve2011 I shot up to 195lbs. In March 2011 I had enough and started weight watchers. I lost about 20 lbs doing weight watchers and then couldn't afford to pay the monthly fee anymore and fell off. Even though I stopped weight watchers and stopped tracking my calories and stopped exercising I have maintained my weight at about 177 lbs since.

The biggest problem I have had over the last few years is the influences in my life. It seems like everyone in my family is overweight and all of them were ok with it. So why was I so worried and self conscience about my weight when i was still smaller than all of them. It was just me making excuses for myself.

I have anxiety issues and depression. I find myself just worrying and worrying about things I can't control or change. And I just have to keep reminding myself to worry about the things I can control!

The ONE thing I can control is what I eat and how I feel about me!

If so many of you can lose so many pounds and I can see the change in your faces in your photos of how proud of your selves you are. Then I can lose the 27 lbs I have been struggling to lose for a few years now.

Thank you to everyone for the inspiration!

SaintGiff

You don't seem crazy at all. I feel... cheated somehow. You should change your username to Fairly-Rational-Meggerz.