Help! Now binging...

MellieCc

Hi,

I have lost 30 pounds since June 2013.

I WAS highly motivated, eating well and working out.

Everything was going great up until about 2 weeks ago.
I have started eating HUGE amounts of food. I think that's called binging.
I actually tried to make myself throw up. Once I take that FIRST bite, I know that's it, I can't stop until I feel so full... I feel sick, I want to throw up.... that is how intense it is.
This has been the harder part thruout my whole life, yoyo dieting. Up and down, feeling good, feeling guilty.....

What's harder is the mental aspect. I don't want to eat all this food but somehow I can't stop....
I think what is probably the best thing about all this is that I am still working out, I am still drinking 2 liters of water/day and I am binging on healthy stuff (like kashi cereals and gluten free bread/real PB and honey) but I'll eat like 5 pieces of bread and 3 bowls of cereal.....

So throughout all of this, still trying to keep my head on straight, working out trying to eat right.
but I have to say this is the hardest time I have ever had mentally struggling..... and I feel so guilty after I have done it.

I have also looked into Overeaters Anonymous.... very interessting and I can totally relate to the mission and statements.

So there it is. Maybe part of my process if to actually put in words what I've been feeling....

Melanie

lawkat

Is there something different going on in your life? Sounds like you are trying to comfort yourself with the use of food. Before you take the first bite, figure out why you want to eat that. Is it your hunger more of an emotional or actual physical need? If it is emotional, you need to step away from the food, deal with the emotion and then find something to distract yourself until the need to binge passes. It take time and a lot of awareness as to how you feel. You aren't alone but to prevent yourself from future binges, you have to deal with the why you want to eat and figure out a new way to deal with it.