Fear Controls My Life

nicoled1285
nicoled1285 Posts: 2
in Motivation and Support
I have tried a million diet plans and a million ways to lose weight. I have lived my life as a 130 lb woman thinking I was fat and purging everyday. I have since stopped throwing up and got up to 264 lbs. I don't know how I let myself get here and I'm scared. I am fearful to try and I'm afraid I will try and not lose any weight. It's so slow, I want it now. I want to feel better now and stop hating myself NOW.

I am scared to be this vulnerable and open up to complete strangers. I need the support though. I'm tired of being scared. I'm tired of being alone and blaming everything on my weight. I just want to love myself and be able to shop at any store and find clothes that fit. To dance and hike and run.

I keep crying and feeling emotional is that normal while changing eating habits?

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  • HappilyTaken610
    HappilyTaken610 Posts: 21
    You are not alone. Having 2 children and overweight with more and more health problems occurring, im scared what will happen to me and who will be there for my children but most of all my son since i'm the only one he has. I cry every week just thinking about my health and look to natural herbs and things to try and diminish them. I have pre cervical cancer so I'm trying to find new ways to get rid of it. I'm hoping eating clean and exercising will be enough.

    I'm here if you need any advice or to vent. It's nice having people be there for you

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