Had a really bad morning

Zomb1eMummy

I made a video about my feelings, you can check it out if you like, I will post it at the end of this.

I woke up this morning and just felt like crap. I wanted to quit. I was done with this all. Just was so done. I had a bad night the night before, I felt like I was doing this for nothing. I was just so mad and upset. I felt like, I just wanted to be "normal" and eat what I want. I literally sat on my couch for 2 hours and just sat there thinking about how terrible I felt and how I was completely wasting my time with all this.

Then I received a PM on FB from a family member saying my SIL's fiance's brother just passed away. He was 30 something and overweight and it caught up to him.

I stopped what I was doing and worked out.

I don't want to be that person who quits. I want to be the person who succeeds. I want to be healthy for me, I want to be healthy for my girls, and I want to be healthy for my husband and family. I want to be able to hold my 19 month old on those days when she just wants to be held all day. I want to be able to run and jump around with my kids and play with them without feeling winded or tired.

I just want to be here for my daughters for as long as possible and in order to do so, I need to lose this weight and get healthy. I can't keep being fat. It is not how I am, it is what I am and I need to change that.

I came to realization and I feel much better. So I made a video so if I ever feel like I did this morning again, I can watch that video and remember why I am doing this.

I wanted to share so if any of you are having a bad day, maybe you can hear my passionate, angry, motivating message somewhere hidden in all the babble I say. It isn't rehearsed. It is an in the moment video that shows exactly what I was feeling right there.

Here is the video...let me know what you think and feel free to share if you know someone else who could use a little reminder.

Thanks for your continued support MFP.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-txl_cnXo4&list=UURp_0EdJYk9TS-crbn-98oQ&feature=c4-overview

sparklelioness

You just gotta push through. That's been one of the biggest lessons for me. Just don't quit. No matter how crappy you feel, you WILL feel better. Don't cave and eat that tub of ice cream, because the pleasure it gives is fleeting and the unhappiness (from guilt, weight gain if you continue to eat like that) outweighs any momentary pleasure.

I'm not religious, but... "this too shall pass". There were plenty of times I felt like I was hanging on for nothing. I wanted to overeat so badly... as much as a heroin addict might want a fix when they're down. I'm serious. But I hung on. Then a few weeks later I'd be shopping, and the size I usually wear would be too big. I wasn't even expecting it. I didn't feel like I was losing much. And then out of the blue - it's like wow.. doing this really is worth it.

I told myself I just can't overeat. Deal with stuff however I want.. but don't overeat.

So yeah. The longer you do it, the easier it gets and the more good things you'll get from it. Short term pain, long term gain

Vonikins

On the mobile app, I love their average calories for the week report. I have found it easier to manage a bad day, or a splurge meal, by seeing that my average for the week is still in line and on target, giving me the mental ability to smooth over the guilt of one day. When I was pregnant and still as I work through my own food cravings, I will sometimes allow myself an indulgence in food, but with moderation like a 1/2 portion of ice cream in a small glass so it looks like a full serving and I don't feel completely deprived. And keep in mind that for healthy "skinny" individuals, most of them worry even more than those working on losing about their eating habits. The only difference is that the truly healthy ones have a built in buffer system of self-care through exercise.