Mental Barrier - I've lost my Mojo

MickeyBoo

It took me a while to get my head in the game to start losing weight, mainly due to how many injuries I have and pain, but also a lot of self doubt in my ability to lose and maintain a low weight as I have lost 50kg in the past and then put it all back on. I have struggled to come to terms with just how much hard work it is to get the weight off. I was resistant to face up to it.

But I managed to get started, lost 15kg and then Xmas hit which shouldn't have been a problem, and wasn't really the problem as the week of Xmas I did really well diet wise, but the weeks after it were all downhill. I think the issue is that I weighed the week of Xmas just 1.7kg short of 100kg and for some reason I have a HUGE mental block over that number. Getting to double digits makes this whole weight loss thing 'real' and there's no going back, it's the letting go of all of my comfort eating, my safe place with binging as a stress release. I'm walking a fine line between the old me and the new me. Unhealthy and Healthy, the easy way out and reality. I have been self sabotaging, I neglect to enter my food diaries properly 100% of the time, I make poor food choices. I know that sounds a bit crazy, but that's where my head is at

I know I shouldn't focus on the number, but I do at this stage because it is where I see results first, my body is slow to change, or perhaps I should say my eyes are slower at seeing the changes if I don't weigh then I tend to lose control and eat more, lie to myself a bit more about how much I'm eating etc. I'm wondering if putting the scales away for a month and just concentrating on my food diaries and workouts would be better.

I just feel like I have lost my motivation, the scales are now bouncing around the same 2kg range so I am not regaining which is a plus. I really just need a big kick up the butt! So feel free to shout at me, be harsh, or give me some tips on how you've gotten re-motivated, or if you know what my head is going through please share how you got past it!

concordancia

I lost about 30 lbs. last year and here I am, starting back at the beginning, almost to the ounce. Yeah, I understand the self doubt. It probably took two weeks from the time I said I was going to get started and the time I got fully ramped up into logging every day and getting consistent exercise. Each time I ate a half bag of chocolate, I would really think about what had triggered it and why I wanted to change. Even if I ate horribly, I still started moving a little bit more and more each day. Once I get into the exercise, it just seems easier to eat right, partly because I know my knees will feel better if I put less weight on them.

I am trying to shift my focus. I don't think so much about how much I want to weigh, but what I want to do. Some of those goals will be met in the next month or so, long before I am a normal weight. If you really need an extra push, you could sign up for some kind of competition, like a Mud Run.

I am also weaning myself off the scale, and aiming for once a month weigh ins. After all, this is going to be a long slog, and it is nice to see the bigger numbers every few weeks. I judge my progress by my strength training and I judge my diet by the numbers: if I eat between 1200 and eating back all of my exercise calories every day, I am on track. If I get off track, the next day I get back up and start over again.