Gained 10 pounds in 6 months

taraja88

I started my fitness and wellbeing journey last year. I lost 20 pounds and got down to my ideal weight. I was very happy; exercised daily, ate my allotted calories and genuinely enjoyed the healthy lifestyle. Something happened in my life and I was unable to attend university for 6 months. I loved exercise so much I kept doing it daily and even signed up with a trainer. I still put on 10 pounds. Weight slowly crept on. I feel this is due to cheat weekends and the occasional "pig out". I'm also on medication; an antipsychotic notorious for weight gain. I still worked out every single day for 1-2 hours. The weight STILL came on. I'm feeling discouraged, I'm not the slim girl I was in the summer. I feel fat. I'm still working out, still logging in my calories but feel so freaking discouraged and so far from my goal. I've slowly learnt to accept myself at this weight but long for that summer body I had 6 months ago. I'm much more muscular and toned now but bulkier and bigger. I have more mass. I don't know what the point of this post was but I need help. I feel like everyone's judging me for putting on this weight; family, friends. I feel like the "fat girl". The failure. I want a reality check. I want someone to just tell me I'm being an idiot. I need some tough love right now. I'm never gonna stop working out. But I need to know what to do, how to feel, how to love myself at this weight yet still reach my goals.

kagevf

besides the weight gain... do you like how you look with your mass gain?
you have less fat and more muscular right? clothes fit nice?

post a pic so we can see... from before and now