Re-introducing myself.

KrisisOD

I'm Kristen, and last year I was dieting, and losing weight through MFP. I started at 175, and lost ten pounds in just under two months. I was really proud of myself, and my husband was encouraging me.

And then he died. I lost all motivation to do anything. In the first month after his passing I couldn't eat at all. I tried, but it would make me sick, and with no appetite to begin with I just let it happen. I lost (at least) ten more pounds from lack of eating. Eventually, I started to eat again, and because of my grief I decided to let my diet go. I said I would give myself some time to grieve and then work on myself, once I had the motivation again.

It's now been almost a year since he passed away. (A REALLY rough year.) And I'm still struggling to find my motivation. I've decided to at least track my food intake, and slowly make changes.

I'm looking into some beginner work outs, to try to find something that sparks my interest.

I'm now weighing in at 194.4 as of yesterday morning. That's 20lbs heavier than I started last year. A total of 40lbs heavier than the beginning of May last year.

I need to get in control, and force myself to be healthy.

Any recommendations for motivation while grieving are welcome.