With Dr help this time

DOVE437

Hello Everyone. I've been on MFP for years, quietly. I've fought to loose weight for years, while generally having a good diet; we don't eat out, we are hunters so we eat all natural meat and fish; we don't have cookies, candy, chips, soda, etc in the house, but I've always fought my weight. I did Insanity for a while and had some luck but then had a knee injury and then a hysterectomy and the weight came back immediatly. I started running religiously after that, 5 miles a day 5 days a week, for 9 MONTHS and gained muscle of course but lost no inches. Between Jan and mid Feb this year I suddenly gained 25 lbs. Unable to wear my wedding ring I ended up in my dr's office in tears.

So here I am, 33, afraid to Hope, on a 1200 cal diet (was prev 1800) checking in with my Dr once a week, on Phentermine and Topiramate, and working out when I can. I have a 7 yr old and a 5 yr old, full time job, married (11 yrs) and life is busy so it's not as frequent as I want. I do have the luck of working from home so my lunch breaks are filled with burpees, crunches, squats, etc daily. Running should increase to almost daily again now since the time change and we have a wee bit more sunlight. Plus I am waiting for my friend to bring back my Insanity, so there's no more excuses.

I realize being on the meds is going to cause some judgement from those of you who have literally worked your *kitten* off. And I tip my hat to you. To make life style changes and hold to that commitment takes a lof ot blood, sweat, and tears. I am here finally reaching out in search of friends because for me, this time, is a little different. While I am not ready to feel excited or hopefull, I also have been on the path of blood, sweat, tears, and despair. I have literally run hundreds of miles, counted calories and fat and done everything I could with little to no results. I also am undergoing numerous testing to figure out what is going on with my body because as my Dr said "something isn't working as it should." I don't want my kids to grow up watching the other kids make fun of thier mom. I want to be proud of who I am, of what I look like, and be proud to stand next to my georgous husband. I want my kids to know the importance of being active and healthy.

I don't want to do this alone. Sorry this was so long, and if you've stayed with me the whole time, Thank you! If you want to "be friends" and enourage each other and help support each other, I'd be happy to cheer you on. :flowerforyou: