Friends, Goals, Change!

hatsumi141

Hello everyone ,

(TLDR version: I'm bigger than I'd like, I would like to meet others like me andddd, the time is now!)

Well I have indeed tried to lose weight before in the past, and I did pretty good at first. Sadly as time went by my motivation got lower and lower and I just came to not care....I wasn't that BIG, at least that's what I told myself. Time went on and I started gaining a lb. here and there until finally after failing to fit into my size 16 jeans without laying on the bed...I looked at myself. I realized I had lost control of my body...I no longer ruled it, it now ruled me. I decided it was time for a change, a big one.

I joined this site to further motivate myself, I have to be in this for me and no one else...but encouragement never hurts.

As all women do, I go shopping for cloths on occasion, sometimes for work purposes, and sometimes for myself. I've always hated shopping for work clothing....its like the devil himself sewed the cloths together to amuse himself. Constantly though, I noticed I was beginning to dread shopping for everyday clothing more and more. Now I hate shopping for cloths, nothing seems nice to me at all. Swim wear is the worst....not to mention the thought of intimate wear. I want to be beautiful, inside AND out.

(the above is the same as my profile, yes very true, but it is the best words I can find to describe myself and why I am here for a change).

Now I am currently 225lbs. at 5'8 ft., with my height it typically surprises people when i say this number. Many people say i don't look it and that my goal of 135lbs. is outrageous, but I can't say I agree. That is my goal as of now, if along the road I find a smaller weight suits me, then I can just stop there and maintain it. For now though, those 95lbs. are my goal.

So, enough about me....How are you guys?