First Scale Victory and NSV

missionquestthing

So a little over a year ago, my husband died. I'm not sure what I weighed at the time but it was around the 220 mark. I couldnt eat for around a week, although i tried to force myself when i could and then i could eat very little for a couple months. I obviously lost a lot of weight during this time without trying. I got down in the 180s.

When i started being able to eat again, I obviously gained weight back but not all of it, I hit the 190s and stayed there. I had to go buy new pants because the 20/22s I had just didnt fit anymore. The pants I got were size sixteen and a year later I was still wearing them. I had somehow maintained the weight without trying.

I will admit during this time, I made some really crappy food choices. I basically ate like a bachelor. My brother who lives with me, gained around 60 pounds over this same year eating the crap we were cooking. So we decided that we would count calories together and try to make healthier food choices.

I have finally dropped below the 180 mark that I didnt even drop below after my husband died. I count this a a victory. It is still far from my goal but it was the first mini-goal that i set for myself.

The NSV is a pair of pants. My mom when I was growing up was around 400 lbs but had gastric bypass a few years ago. She gave me a pair of pants that were waay to big for her but were snug on me. Although I could look at her and see she was no longer the large woman of my childhood, there was still the stigma. If i could wear the pants that were too big for my mom, how big had I gotten. It was illogical but still I felt that way.

Anyway, I am happy to report that those pants are now waayy to big for me, too. I had to belt the on yesterday.

CumberlandGrammy

I am so sorry for your loss, and so impressed with your success. I wish you the best in your journey.

hstoblish

I'm so sorry about the loss of your husband.

Congrats on the NSV, that's a very good one. I'll admit that one of the things that pushed me to realize that I needed to lose weight was that my mom started to try and lend me her old clothes. She's a very beautiful woman but hasn't liked her body for a very long time, and about that has always been hard for me. So when my body started to look more like hers and I was starting to talk like her about my body, I realized it was time to make changes. Now I feel more like me again.

Laughter_Girl

Sounds like you have been through a lot but have come a long way. Congratulations on the scale & NSV!!!! Keep it up!

missionquestthing

Thanks everyone, I miss him a lot. I wish he could see me as I lose weight too.

I was around a size 5 in highschool and a size 9 when i met my husband. Most of the weight gain seemed to happen after getting the implanon birth control. The thing about weight seems to be once you get it one, it never wants to come off, again.

Kookyk9s

It is funny how our childhood shapes our thoughts. My mother always said that I was too fat to wear jeans even when I was a small child in grade one. Can't get me out of jeans now. So there!! Glad for you that your mom's pants do not fit. Who wants granny pants anyways - no matter your age - Get rid of them for good or may be to just hang in the closet as a reminder of how far you have come but get them off your bod. It is too fabulous for that.

I am sure your husband is proud of your efforts and success even if he cannot say it to your face right now. He would be happy for you. KEEP STRONG.