Diary of a Compulsive Overeater - Day 15

ellelit

so yesterday wasn't great. i went into it feeling really good, packing healthy snacks and a great lunch, etc. i was feeling fairly happy for most of the day, but after my lunch, i immediately got it into my head that i would stop on the way home and get some bad snacks from the convenience store. i didn't even bring money, i had to put it on visa. i NEVER do that. i have no idea why the craving was so big, but for the last 3 hours of work all i could think about were pizza subs, pop and chips. i even tried to come to a comprimise with myself: "ok, i don't feel like cooking so i'll stop and get a nice healthy chicken wrap instead". so what did it do? i stopped, got the chicken wrap and then ate it on my way to the convenience store! what the hell? geeeeeeeez. so here is how yesterday went:

breakfast:
1 cup of kashi
1 cup skim milk

snack:
mini carrots
cucumber slices
granola bar

snack:
mini carrots
apple sauce
yogurt

lunch:
tossed salad with tomatoes and cukes, olive oil vinaigrette
leftover pork chop
1/2 cup rice
steamed broccoli in little bit of becel and garlic

snack:
medium slice of ice cream cake (someone's birthday)

snack:
grilled chicken wrap with tomatoes, cheese and avocados, sprouts, sour cream

supper:
2 small bags of ripple chips
1 small bottle of diet pepsi
2 microwave pizza subs

sigh. seriously had the best intentions, and then this little voice inside of me started to fantasise about the pizza subs half way through the day. i barely got any work done in the afternnon because all i could think about was the taste of the sandwhices. after i ate them i was really full, not so full that i was sick, but full enough to know i ate too much. i logged my food up until dinner, and i still had a walk to do and i was 600 calories under, plenty of calories to have a nice dinner, and i blew it. i ended up going almost 1200 calories over. i'm gaining weight, my clothes are starting to get tight on me, and i dont know what to do.

here is the plan for today:

breakfast:
bacon breakfast bagel

snack:
granola bar
orange

lunch:
wonton soup with steamed veggies

snack:
1 apple
22 almonds

supper:
w/w spagetti with meatballs and tomato sauce, little bit of parm cheese
tossed salad with tomatoes and cukes, olive oil vinaigrette

snack:
1 cup of skim milk

so iam going to try today. i had a meeting this morning, and i was late, so i stopped and got a breakfast bagel. it is from a cafe, not mcdonalds or anything, with homemade mayo and veggies, so it's not totally horrible, but it is not as good as oatmeal, but i just didn't have time. i'm also planning on going for a walk today. here are my goals for today:

not to beat myself up about yesterday
have a positive attitude going in to today
make a healthy choice at the restaurant for lunch
go for a walk before supper
continue reading the dr. phil book and set acehivable and realistic goals for the progression and sustainability of my weightloss.
try to think of something else if the cravings take over.

here is to today. also, i have gotten a journal and written my monthly weightloss goals (for when i get this under control). my goal is 5 pounds a month, and to be 250 or less by my 30th birthday.

ellelit

so yesterday wasn't great. i went into it feeling really good, packing healthy snacks and a great lunch, etc. i was feeling fairly happy for most of the day, but after my lunch, i immediately got it into my head that i would stop on the way home and get some bad snacks from the convenience store. i didn't even bring money, i had to put it on visa. i NEVER do that. i have no idea why the craving was so big, but for the last 3 hours of work all i could think about were pizza subs, pop and chips. i even tried to come to a comprimise with myself: "ok, i don't feel like cooking so i'll stop and get a nice healthy chicken wrap instead". so what did it do? i stopped, got the chicken wrap and then ate it on my way to the convenience store! what the hell? geeeeeeeez. so here is how yesterday went:

breakfast:
1 cup of kashi
1 cup skim milk

snack:
mini carrots
cucumber slices
granola bar

snack:
mini carrots
apple sauce
yogurt

lunch:
tossed salad with tomatoes and cukes, olive oil vinaigrette
leftover pork chop
1/2 cup rice
steamed broccoli in little bit of becel and garlic

snack:
medium slice of ice cream cake (someone's birthday)

snack:
grilled chicken wrap with tomatoes, cheese and avocados, sprouts, sour cream

supper:
2 small bags of ripple chips
1 small bottle of diet pepsi
2 microwave pizza subs

sigh. seriously had the best intentions, and then this little voice inside of me started to fantasise about the pizza subs half way through the day. i barely got any work done in the afternnon because all i could think about was the taste of the sandwhices. after i ate them i was really full, not so full that i was sick, but full enough to know i ate too much. i logged my food up until dinner, and i still had a walk to do and i was 600 calories under, plenty of calories to have a nice dinner, and i blew it. i ended up going almost 1200 calories over. i'm gaining weight, my clothes are starting to get tight on me, and i dont know what to do.

here is the plan for today:

breakfast:
bacon breakfast bagel

snack:
granola bar
orange

lunch:
wonton soup with steamed veggies

snack:
1 apple
22 almonds

supper:
w/w spagetti with meatballs and tomato sauce, little bit of parm cheese
tossed salad with tomatoes and cukes, olive oil vinaigrette

snack:
1 cup of skim milk

so iam going to try today. i had a meeting this morning, and i was late, so i stopped and got a breakfast bagel. it is from a cafe, not mcdonalds or anything, with homemade mayo and veggies, so it's not totally horrible, but it is not as good as oatmeal, but i just didn't have time. i'm also planning on going for a walk today. here are my goals for today:

not to beat myself up about yesterday
have a positive attitude going in to today
make a healthy choice at the restaurant for lunch
go for a walk before supper
continue reading the dr. phil book and set acehivable and realistic goals for the progression and sustainability of my weightloss.
try to think of something else if the cravings take over.

here is to today. also, i have gotten a journal and written my monthly weightloss goals (for when i get this under control). my goal is 5 pounds a month, and to be 250 or less by my 30th birthday.

icupfunny2000

common girl i know you can do this!!!!! We all know its hard but you neeed to do this.... sometimes when i have unbareable cravings i will have a good healthy dinner then have maybe half of the craving for a snack just so i can say i had it!!! like half a pizza sub for a snack which probably wouldnt be as bad.... i also try not to keep ANY chips in the house because i cant control myself around chips....

j~:flowerforyou:

hamilton4beaumont

I notice you drink skim milk. I like it too, but sometimes if you want to make your milk more fun... add a pack of splenda and heat for a while til bubbly and then add 2 teaspoons of vanilla or almond extract. I love these little steamers! It sure makes my "snack of skim milk" more fun and tasty. Just thought I'd share.
Glad you are on here! It's nice to read your posts. :flowerforyou:

LokiFae

I have bad days like that too. Here's an idea for quick breakfasts: I make homemade oatmeal breakfast cookies and keep them in the fridge for a quick breakfast. Then I don't have any excuse for deli bagels (which are a HUGE craving for me), because I can grab one or two breakfast cookies. Also, you burn some calories cooking...Always a good thing!

Keep your head up. I know you'll reach your goal!

Katy009

I have been looking at your meals and just wanted to suggest that you might want to add more protein during the day as it might help keep you more full and keep your mind off the snacks. I would be starving if I ate only a salad for lunch and then carrots or cucumber slices for a snack!! Sometimes I take a small can of tuna to work (56 gr), drain it, and add a small can of drained, mixed veges (peas, olives, & corn usually). The tuna has lots of protein and is really low in calories. Also, sometimes I just eat deli meat.....turkey, ham, or chicken with cheese slices and leave out the bread. Or add whole wheat bread if you prefer a sandwich.

I hope that can help in some small way....good luck.....I know you can do it!!!

walnut

I had that problem too of not being able to concentrate on work or whatever else because of thinking about food so bad, even when I wasn't hungry. I went to therapy and learned that whenever I was having cravings that intense, it was because there was something else bothering me that I didn't want to think about. The mind has a powerful way of producing those all-encompassing thoughts and cravings to help avoid thinking about other stuff. Therapy was very helpful to me in learning to understand and overcome these cravings. I just wanted to share with you another option for overcoming the compulsions, because I think trying to just stop them isn't always that simple and circumvents the underlying problems. It's like treating a broken bone with tylenol - it helps with the pain, but not the reason why the pain is there. What you are fighting is common and totally workable. If you ever feel like you're having trouble working things out on your own, there are lots of avenues for getting help. You don't have to suffer alone. :flowerforyou: