took bikini pics

foxruddellc1

...for the first time. I don't want to share them on here, but this exercise has taught me, that I have a warped self-image.

I took them yesterday, and until I looked at them again this morning, I am not fat. I spent last night body-hating myself. And I look at them now, and yes I have excess fat, but not nearly the amount I thought I did. I have a nice, proportionate body, that with a few months of weight lifting again is gonna look bangin!

None of us should feel like this. I shouldn't have to check and recheck what my *kitten* and tummy look like 5x a day to convince myself that I look better than I thought I did. Seriously, wth? I'm kinda mad at society right now.

HaibaneReki

go You, lot of gals need to hear that :flowerforyou:

Beezil

Yeah it sucks feeling like you constantly need to look in the mirror and still never feeling good enough - then feeling self-centered and / or narcissistic for doing it at all. /sigh