I did it before I'M DOING IT AGAIN

cjpg
cjpg Posts: 433 Member
in Motivation and Support
Ok so I fell off the wagon pretty much as hard as you can.

Back in 2011 I joined this site. I was 116kg's. I didn't want to be any more. So I decided to change that.
Within six months I lost 18 kg's and was resting at 98kg's.

Then life hit me harder then I could possibly have expected. I lost my IT job and with it my career of 5 years.
I lost the love of my life and with it a relationship of seven years.
Life itself made me redundant. And I shut down.

For two years.

Today I lay here typing to you as someone who has allowed himself to get to 114kg's again over the last two years. I want to say I feel ashamed but I dont. It was my choice. I let life convince me to stop - and I stopped.

Today I make a promise. To do it all over again. But for the right reasons. Clearly my resolve was not strong enough last time to break apart like I did. I was doing it for other people before myself.

I am doing this for myself. I will do this. Just you watch.

If anyone wants to lend support I openly invite people to share my journey. I started my gym training today and at 114kg's managed to run 5k's in 36 mins 45 secs.

I now have a benchmark >:) GAME ON!

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  • PINKinquisition1908
    PINKinquisition1908 Posts: 180 Member
    You can do it!
  • dopeysmelly
    dopeysmelly Posts: 1,390 Member
    You're not alone.

    I was down to size 4 about 9 years ago after a lifetime of being borderline obese, but then got pregnant (had to graze constantly to defeat the nausea) and life (baby, work, business travel, moving) got in the way.

    I don't feel ashamed at all that I let the weight come back. It wasn't ideal, clearly, but my life was complex and I couldn't spend the time to sort it out. I was spending my time doing other things which were very important right then. That's why I'm doing it now.

    I also know with absolute positivity that I'll do it. I don't have a single doubt in my mind at all. My certainty actually scares my husband a bit TBH. I'm not keeping any fat clothes (except one pair of shorts so I can compare later), and I'm going to log food, weigh myself and get 1 hr of daily exercise for the rest of my life. Done.

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