Hello all

manningania

Hi I am Ania Manning. And I have an eating disorder. Not the type where I barely eat but the type where I get a lot of food but they are all within the 1200 calorie range. I have an unhealthy obsession with calorie counting. I am 21 years old 5'6" tall and weigh 95 lbs. it all started when my husband deployed and I was stressing out and couldn't eat because I was so worried. But then when he came home I was 130 lbs (started off at 160 lbs). The doc told me I was overweight at 130 and should consume 600 calories. Day and that is when calorie counting started. Instead of 600 a day I decided to do 1200 and got hooked now I am 95 lbs and cannot have a baby and am always tired and no fun anymore. I am in this forum to get answers on how to gain weight and once I reach 125 how to maintain it. I am seeing a nutritionist and a doc and a psychiatrist, but I am also on here for people who can relate because I don't like being in this alone. I feel like a freak having not be able to eat more calories but I want to maintain once I reach my goal weight of 125 WITHOUT counting. Anyone have any advice please?
Ps I have written in other forums and yes it does get annoying and I apologize, I tend to drink and excessive amount of fluids as well so I always have water retention which throws off the scale one night I weigh 100 the next morning I weigh 95, it's not healthy.

I also have hobbies of snowboarding and dirt biking and hiking, I want to do it all again without getting exhausted, I want to be healthy not skinny, not fat, just healthy and not care about counting anymore.

Carley

I'm recovered from an eating disorder, if you'd like to chat message me.