31bs Gone
MissMegannLee
Posts: 226 Member
I was never a heavy person in my childhood years, but when I hit 15 I slowly started gaining weight. In 2010 I was at the heaviest I had ever been, but I still didn't seem to care. 2013 I tried to lose weight, but after a few bad events including the passing of my best friends father who was my dad to me in more ways than one, I sky dived back into severe depression. I've battled with depression and PTSD for most of my life, but went undiagnosed until my twenty's. I could never figure out what was so wrong with me and why I felt so miserable day in and day out. I hated my life, I hated my body and sadly I hated a lot of people around me for no given reason. I hit rock bottom when I threatened to kill myself to my mom one evening, it was my breaking point. I was done with being sad, feeling alone, unwanted, scared, and tired. I got help and got treated, I am still not okay, my anxiety eats me alive, I have a lot of bad days, sometimes more than the good, but guess what? I never gave up, I have never given up and finally in January of 2014 I said to myself that enough was enough.If I could pull myself out and away from committing suicide and not becoming another number on a statistics chart, then I could lose the weight. It hasn't been easy. It sucks to be honest. I cry when I workout. I want to give up, sometimes I do give up, but find myself right back at it moments later. I whine and I complain, but through it all, through the breaks, the days "off" the cheat meals the random moments of eating crap and feeling guilty, I haven't quit. I kept pushing. If I could deal with being molested for years by a person I trusted, and battle PTSD due to that, battle depression, and try to tackle my anxiety and social phobia I could do this and push through this and I am. I'm pushing every single day and I have not quit and I won't quit. I'm not fully to where I want to be, but I finally hit me 30+ pound mark and I could not be more proud of myself and my success. I original was going to stop when I hit around 213, but now I know I can keep pushing and keep thriving and I will tackle this just like I tackled everything else I have in my life and I will keep a smile on my face because no matter what I know that I can do it and by keeping that smile on my face I can reassure myself that I will make it out of all of this even stronger than I am now.
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You look awesome! Keep it up!0
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Wow wonderful job0
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Way to go! Looking great!0
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Thank you so much you guys!0
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Very impressive! Great job0
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Very impressive! Great job
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amazing!!! way to go!!!!0
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I can REALLY see a difference... nice work!!0
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Thank you!0
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Your determination and success after what you've had to deal with are inspiring as Hell, well done you, you're looking great!0
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Your determination and success after what you've had to deal with are inspiring as Hell, well done you, you're looking great!
Thank you so very much0 -
You have been through a lot. Stay positive and don't give up0
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Congrats! You are doing amazingly!0
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Great job! You must be proud :drinker: :flowerforyou:0
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awesome job!!! role model :glasses:0
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Wow. Thanks so much everyone!
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I'm always willing to lend an ear and advice!0 -
Great job, keep it up! I struggle with anxiety, too, so I know how hard it is to try to better yourself when you're constantly lacking the energy to even get up, let alone take care of yourself properly. Stay strong.0
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you look good. keep up the great work0
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You are doing so well. It is NOT easy, that's for sure, but keep your head held high and keep up the great work. You should be very proud of your accomplishments! congrats,:flowerforyou:0
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You are awesome and Beautiful. don't let anyone else tell you or make you feel that way. I am honored i was about to read your story and you are so strong for sharing with us. Good luck with everything in your life. but we all know that you are going to rock it regardless!!!0
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Great job!
I actually find that the better i do, the more i exercise, the less my anxiety and depression are. So i push myself to exercise even when i don't feel like i can go another minute....because i know i can. Sounds like you do the same thing0 -
You are awesome and Beautiful. don't let anyone else tell you or make you feel that way. I am honored i was about to read your story and you are so strong for sharing with us. Good luck with everything in your life. but we all know that you are going to rock it regardless!!!
Wow..thank you so much.0 -
Looking great, what a difference! Keep up the good work!0
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I just want to say thanks again everyone for all your kind words. It makes me so teary reading it all, because I never thought I'd get this far with my weight loss journey ever. So thank you.0
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You are beautiful, inside and out. Job well done, you're going on my inspiration list!0
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