Lost 56 pounds but gained 40 back :(

Julyfly70

So I'm here again. I've actually tried to start back on here about 4 times but give up after a couple of days. I know I can do this. I've done it before. I could tell you all the reasons/excuses why I gained 40 pounds back but it doesn't change a thing. I'm mad at myself that I threw away all the hard work I had done. Hoping to find lasting motivation this time!