Yesterday's Revelation

BikeChick

First I should say that I enjoy walking. Thoroughly. I love to walk, and I can walk for hours and not get tired, out of breath, or too sweaty. (How GREAT is that?! :happy: )
Yesterday I was at the park walking, and it was a beautiful day. I was really enjoying myself, and GOD I felt great! I had already been walking about 45 minutes with not one break, when I came to a turn in the road and there were two young, attractive males standing next to their cars. As I approached, I found myself silently praying with each step I took "Please leave, please leave, please leave." I alternated between that and "Please don't see me!" :embarassed:
Shortly thereafter, I noticed a beautiful woman jogging toward me. She had the rosy joggers glow, and great form! When I jog, my butt sticks WAY out and my boobs stick WAY forward, and I resemble something like a cross between a duck and a sea lion. I instantly felt inferior. All of my hard work for that day, feeling great, enjoying the sunshine, and MOVING MYSELF was all stripped from me in those moments.
These people didn't even say anything or do anything to make me feel that way. I made myself feel that way. I think we can all be harshest on ourselves. Would you ever talk to someone else the way you talk to yourself? I know I wouldn't! I wouldn't have a friend left!
How can we get over being our own worst critics? This isn't the first time that sort of thing has happened. I can go about my whole day without worrying too much about my body, and even sometimes feel good about the way I look. Then someone who is "more attractive" - or rather, SKINNIER, will come along, and right then and there I feel grotesque and unlovable. Does anyone else do this?
I know who I am inside, and most of the time I truly appreciate my heart and mind. I think I'm a pretty cool chick, and I certainly don't feel like the body I'm in is mine. At times it's motivating, and at others, I just want to gorge and forget my "inferiority" in a gallon of ice cream. (I haven't done anything like that for a long time! :blushing: )
We have a right to enjoy the same things that everyone that's thin can enjoy. TRUE!
There should be no reason to give up what we love because we might not look good doing it. TRUE!
Thin people are superior. FALSE!
Thin = Beautiful. FALSE!!!

BikeChick

First I should say that I enjoy walking. Thoroughly. I love to walk, and I can walk for hours and not get tired, out of breath, or too sweaty. (How GREAT is that?! :happy: )
Yesterday I was at the park walking, and it was a beautiful day. I was really enjoying myself, and GOD I felt great! I had already been walking about 45 minutes with not one break, when I came to a turn in the road and there were two young, attractive males standing next to their cars. As I approached, I found myself silently praying with each step I took "Please leave, please leave, please leave." I alternated between that and "Please don't see me!" :embarassed:
Shortly thereafter, I noticed a beautiful woman jogging toward me. She had the rosy joggers glow, and great form! When I jog, my butt sticks WAY out and my boobs stick WAY forward, and I resemble something like a cross between a duck and a sea lion. I instantly felt inferior. All of my hard work for that day, feeling great, enjoying the sunshine, and MOVING MYSELF was all stripped from me in those moments.
These people didn't even say anything or do anything to make me feel that way. I made myself feel that way. I think we can all be harshest on ourselves. Would you ever talk to someone else the way you talk to yourself? I know I wouldn't! I wouldn't have a friend left!
How can we get over being our own worst critics? This isn't the first time that sort of thing has happened. I can go about my whole day without worrying too much about my body, and even sometimes feel good about the way I look. Then someone who is "more attractive" - or rather, SKINNIER, will come along, and right then and there I feel grotesque and unlovable. Does anyone else do this?
I know who I am inside, and most of the time I truly appreciate my heart and mind. I think I'm a pretty cool chick, and I certainly don't feel like the body I'm in is mine. At times it's motivating, and at others, I just want to gorge and forget my "inferiority" in a gallon of ice cream. (I haven't done anything like that for a long time! :blushing: )
We have a right to enjoy the same things that everyone that's thin can enjoy. TRUE!
There should be no reason to give up what we love because we might not look good doing it. TRUE!
Thin people are superior. FALSE!
Thin = Beautiful. FALSE!!!

hamilton4beaumont

I think it's awesome you love walking and get pumped up about it. I'm the same way. I like to go into another world with my mp3 and GO! I read a book that really helped me with being so SELF-conscious. It's called, When you eat at the Refrigerator, pull up a chair. I know it sounds goofy, but it's not at all. Check it out!
Congrats on your determination again!
Have a great day.:flowerforyou:

BikeChick

I have read that book! I own it, actually! :laugh: I loved it, and it made me feel a WHOLE lot better! Maybe it's time I pull it off the shelf and give it another go. :happy: