starting over, again...!

rebeccaplatt21

I keep trying and keep ‘failing’, but at least I keep starting again!
I really started in January, eating better, trying to exercise…
I still eat better (mostly) and by better, I mean more whole foods, less stuff that comes out of a box. I have tried a few ‘diets’, but they were WAY too restrictive and since I HATE being told what to do, I rebelled after a few days and binged.

By exercising, I started with P90X in January. That lasted a whole 2 days! Too hard for me right now. In march, I started walking to work! 0.7mi the short way (the way I go on my way home), 1.3mi the medium way (the way I most often go on the way in). I’m pretty consistent, walking 3-4 times a week.
Yesterday I started C25K., and I didn’t die! I think I actually kind of liked it!

So, back story, I was diagnosed with PCOS in my early 20’s. typical symptoms, infertility, weight gain, inability to lose weight, acne, hirsutism (excess facial hair). somehow I lost 50lbs without trying, literally it felt like I woke up one day and it was gone….perhaps it had something to do with divorcing, living on my own, no money for food, exercise of choice was sex, but who’s to say for sure…so I was down to 185, a very comfortable weight for me…sounds like a lot to most, but I had been 165 for all of HS. So getting back to that (nearly) was amazing to me!!!

fast forward 7 yrs: 3 kids and another husband later, I am truly at my heaviest at 264 (ouch!). and I had an epiphany, although I clearly don’t have infertility issues anymore, everything else is back with a vengeance, massive weight gain, the harder I try to lose, the more I gain (seriously, when I started in Jan, I was 254!), acne is worse than when I was a teenager, and I have to literally shave my face every single day (we’re talking beard, mustache and sideburns people!). I think my PCOS is back.

I feel like I’m an expert on nutrition and pretty conversed in exercise. I read about this stuff all day long, But if this C25K doesn’t have any effect on my weight, I’m at a total loss as to what to do! I’m very discouraged because literally, the harder I try to be healthy and fit, the more weight I gain!

I have also started taking a few herbs to help regulate the hormone rollercoaster my body has going on with the PCOS. I am taking Vitex (Chaste Berry), Maca Root, and Bladderwrack, in addition to the 5,000 iu’s of Vit D to help with depression.

I just wanted to put myself out there and say Hi and share my story…maybe I’ll be more apt to stick with it after a week when I don’t see results (I know, it takes about 4), but clearly I’m impatient!

Thanks for listening!

Ablange

I am a little bit of a rebel too! Thanks for sharing your story. FR sent. We can motivate each other. I have an under active thyroid, so weight loss is tough for me too. Stick with it ( longer than a week ) Even if your scale doesn't move, you will feel much better mentally which makes any struggle worth it!!

trudywc2

I too am starting again and not giving myself the option to quit. Thank you for sharing your story, and great that you are walking to work and getting your exercise in (something I have to start doing). I have also told a friend I will do the 5k with her next year so I need to get started, hopefully I will enjoy it.

Feel free to friend me and we can help each other stay motivated.

msmonsi

Impatience is what has done me in every time...and I'm learning to set my goals even smaller than I would like to, i.e., I have a problem with my ankle and until it heals cannot exercise strenuously, so I set my goal to losing 1 lb. per week via healthy eating. I gave up coffee a year ago and that helps in that I am not constantly fluctuating between highs and lows associated with coffee. Good luck and hang in there!