I fixed it.

I did lose weight . I know I will be there soon. Thank you to the people who is in the program who motivate me even if sometimes I did do things on my own. Thank you to my sissy Gerjen.
I am in a Venus Factor community. and I am enjoying being there. Not because I am desperate to lose weight but because I found real friend who did accept a big girl with big love.
http://venusbuddy.wordpress.com/