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87Starting13Over

My weight has always been up and down since I was little.

In elementary and middle school I was big.

The summer before high school I lost weight and was a decent size for 9 grade then I gained weight the summer before 10 grade and got my first job at McDonalds:ohwell:

Worst decision I ever made. The least I could have done was get a job at the mall.

Then a year later I worked at Burger king. Trying to balance school and working full time I lived a lifestyle of eating fast, too much and junk food.

Then I would try a diet and it would last for 1 or 2 weeks and then I ended up binging on the foods I left out :sad:

This has been my life for over 10 years.

Purchasing treadmills, elliptical machines, trainers, gym memberships, ab lounges, you name it I brought all kinds of exercise equipment.

Not to mention, I tried every diet plan that I came across, fruit diet, vegetarian diet, slim fast, nutrisystem, cabbage diet , liquid diet....i mean the list goes on.

Last year I told myself that I would try one last diet and it was jenny Craig. I lost 40 pounds. Which is the picture you see as my profile.

Then this year started and I went back to my old habits.

Just to let you in I am an emotional eater and i eat because the stress of school, work, my family and my low self-esteem.

This is my last year of school in obtaining my bachelors in social work. I chose social work because I wanted to help individuals in poverty that result in lack of education and resources which inturn leads to neglected children.

But I have so many issues of my own that I wonder if I could do my job 100%.

I always tell myself before I start a new diet that when I lose the weight I would be a great person to help others in need because I know that's what I needed growing up.

Now that I tried my last diet plan and it failed again I dont know what to do.

I really want to lose weight but i cant stop eating junk food. I even fought with myself talking back and forth how its bad for me and all but the demons seems to have more control over me then I do.

I am at my wits and I know I need this more than just for self esteem its also for my health because my family have a history of diabetes and high blood sugar.

You would think that would help the situation but it doesn't.

I thought I had it last year when I did so well but now I am back where i started. I just want to be happy:brokenheart:

nomeejerome

You already know you are an emotional eater and it probably would help to address that issue. Since this is something you have dealt with for quite a long time, you can't expect everything to go away in a short period of time. (ex. the 1 or 2 weeks you decide to try a quick fix diet approach and/or some new exercise equipment)

You made a decision to make changes and you lost 40 pounds, so you have it in you. Many times when people tie the number on the scale to happiness, they lose the weight and still struggle with esteem issues. (not everybody, but it happens a lot) Have you ever tried eating all types of foods in moderation, eating at a calorie deficit and approaching this as a long term solution versus a quick fix?

_toyatip08

I was a yo-yo dieter as well and once I had my daughter 2 1/2 years ago I made a priority to get it right this time. I want to live for her!! I have so far lost 48lbs and I have 20 more lbs to go before I get to my goal weight. I too have family members that have multiple health problems due to obesity and I said I will not be like them on medication for the rest of my life. I think the key is eating at your calorie goal and choosing foods you like and doing exercise you like. Doing it at a slow pace will keep you gunning for that goal weight. Good luck this time around!!

87Starting13Over

Your right. My biggest problem is that I want to lose the weight fast. I want to start living my life now. I never really thought of using the food I love and just portioning it out. I will try what you guys suggested. thank you so much.