Overcoming a trigger food. It can be done!

IHateThinkingOfAUsername

Okay so I've written about this elsewhere but I am just so proud of myself that I want to scream it from the roof tops, and in the process maybe provide encouragement for others.

So one of my binge foods is cupcakes with soft butter icing. When in a low period of my life I would go to the supermarket at dinner time, buy two (amongst other thins), hide in my office and scoff both of them, feel so incredibly stupid, wrap up the evidence box, and hide it in the bottom of the bin. Seriously ****ed up eating. Secretive eating. Bad.

Well, recently I was given 6 cupcakes, and instantly they were on my mind, and those feelings of a) how great it feels to eat them and b) the feeling of loss of control that used to take over came rushing back. And I admit I was scared. It was horrible. I wanted to throw them out, but they were given to me from one of my pupils. That would have been so ungrateful. This is what actually happened:

I was given them at 9am.
From that moment on they were in my head. Swinging from 'go on eat me, hide the evidence, no one will know' to 'don't let them ruin your weight loss!'.
At dinner time it was bad. I had my usual dinner, and the thoughts were nearly overwhelming.
But I managed to resist. Somehow.
The next hurdle was getting home. How nice they would have been as a pre- tea snack with a drink.
I resisted. Partly because at this point I decided I would share them with my husband and I wouldn't want him to still have 1 left while I'd eaten all of mine.
I had it all planned. Early tea. Early snack. (I always have some chocolate etc as a treat each night. I decided that I'd have one of the cupcakes then).
That didn't quite happen. My husband was very late home from work.
I had tea around 8pm. It was torture waiting.
My husband came home at 8:45, had his tea then together we had a cupcake each.

And that was it. The spell was broken.
They are very nice, but not the best I've ever had.
I stopped at just one.
The next day I carried on as normal, as though I didn't have any cupcakes. They weren't on my mind. I had one that night at my usual snack time, without any of the thoughts from the previous day. And tonight I will be eating the last one.

I am just so proud that I have won this battle with one of my hardest trigger binge foods.
Next time I face a battle similar to this one I can look back on this and know I have the power and control.

Pirate_chick

Great job!

jkwpdx

So awesome...and we all have our triggers, mine is Pizza, the special kind LOL!!

farfromthetree

Cheez-its here!