Trying Yet Again

NymeriaPallas

I'm only 18 years old, but for most of my life, I've been struggling with my weight. I don't think there was ever a time where I felt 'thin' or 'pretty', especially compared to a lot of my friends. In my childhood, I was overweight, but recently, I've gained another 15 lbs, putting me at obese. I've told myself to loose weight hundreds of times, but have never had the will power to actually follow through for more than a week or two.
That's probably because I've never asked for help.
My parents and brother are all very, very healthy, making it hard to talk about with them. My younger brother, who is only 15, is a future fitness trainer, I swear to god. He goes to the gym 6 days a week for an hour, is constantly downing protein shakes, and attractive for a sophomore. My mother, too, is beautiful, and I always heard about it growing up. Standing next to them, I always felt like the odd one out. It isn't to say that overweight people can't be beautiful. I really don't mean that. It's just hard for me to think I'M good enough when next to them.
My father was overweight when I was little, and spent about two years working it off. He worked hard and made it to his goal. But that was about 10 years ago, and I think he's forgotten about it a little. I know he loves me, and only means the best, but I've heard him mention more than once about how I should try to go to the gym, not buy that mac and cheese, focus on carbs, etc. It's an attempt to be supportive, but comes off as more judgmental than anything.
So, yeah. I've become extremely awkward talking about weight in person. (Well, mine). I've tried counting calories and stuff before hand, but I think the one thing I've been missing is support. I'm going to try to be more active on the forums, listen to advice, and try to make friends who are going through the same thing as me. I REALLY started a week ago, my height is 5'7" (female) and my start weight was 208 lbs. Since then, I've already lost 3 lbs, which I know is really only going to happen at the beginning. My goal is to get down to 145, and then reassess. If you're looking for a MFP friend, feel free to add me! I'd appreciate any advice and support. Thanks!

justsmile_jessie

You ARE pretty. You ARE beautiful, no matter what. And I know you won't believe it, but I'm saying it anyway. Everyone is, in their own way. Though I am going through the opposite situation (my entire family is unhealthy), we do share one thing; lack of support. My family don't care that they are unhealthy, and aren't doing anything about to help themselves or me, despite knowing how important my health and losing weight is for me. I've went to my mom 2 or 3 times, saying how I WANT to be a healthy and get help from a dietitian or nutritionist, but she never did anything about it. And it is hard when you feel alone. But you're not. You've got an entire community of people going through similar situation, ready to support and help you I'm no expert, but from what I've experienced, the first step is to chose a reason as to why. I've always thought :"I want to loose weight so others like me."
But with that mindset, I've always failed. Lately, I've been trying to tell myself I'm doing this for ME. Convincing myself (or trying to anyway) that I want to be healthy to prevent diabetes, heart diseases, ect. It's much more motivating. I think. Also, start small. Don't try going to the gym 6 times a week eating nothing but salad. You'll either get sick of it, injure yourself, ect. Try starting to make healthier choices such as incorporating more veggies, more fruits, more water, exercising. Gradually easing into this lifestyle which really is life changing. And if you sometimes slip, forgive yourself! As long as you're trying, you're moving forward! Good luck, and take care!

becomingittybittyme

Good luck girlie! I lost a lot of weight before my freshman year in high school back in 2007. Unfortunately, when I graduated in 2011 (back when I wore a size 9) life kinda hit me. Since then, I've gotten married, been through a deployment with said husband and the miscarriage of our first child last December. Now, at the age of almost 21, I have gained weight back and am now a sad size 17. I'm disgusted just to say it I've never been very thin either. I just want to feel better in my own skin, ya know?
Anywho, I'm just going on and on. Feel free to add me and I'll try to be as supportive as possible! I just started back about a week ago ^-^ ♥

thegreatcanook

Add me for support!