New York- ready to lose

sylvialivin

Hi well a life time of weight loss and gain, I now am at my lifetime achievement of all time high on the scale.

The instant reward , of food has turned to a numbing cover for EVERYTHING I feel .

Having all pretesting done and two days before gastric sleve surgery I called and canceled

Not because I would be removing a part of my anatomy , but because I didn't want to lose and then regain and have not only have to manage this weight but to add the EXTRA WEIGHT OF THE Shame .

Multiple times I have lost and had so much attention because of losing , then I gain and no one even looks me in the eye anymore .

This is it , I Need to change and I am now comit to recording and participating in my fittness pal daily I want to live again not just stumble thru life.

There is no more time to waste

Thanks

sylvialivin

I think I should of opened with hello !
And I hope to find my way to renewed health thru clean eating and honoring my body
Not just my impulses
:-)

Daniel_Damti

Nice best of luck im sure ull sucsed
Im also from Ny btw if you want add me

thegreatcanook

You can do this! Add me for support!