29/f/5'7.25" SW:317 CW:255 GW: 160-170 Looking for friends

adip0sey

My weight has flucuated a lot over the years. I started dieting when I was about 11-12 years old. From 13-18 I ranged between 180 and 210. After I started depo-provera ( a birth control shot), I gained about 30 lbs (maybe more). When I was 20, I was diagnosed with PCOS. I have tried numerous diets and weight loss programs. I lost about 40lbs in 2 months on Dr. Bernsteins, but quickly gained it back when I inevitably fell off the wagon (I don't think an 800 calorie diet is realistic). I lost 10 lbs on weight watchers (I was 12 and really hated logging everythig that went in my mouth. I just wanted to be normal like the other kids around me). I lost about 40 on LA Weightloss, but gain all that back plus at least 67lbs when I went to university. I became extremely depressed and I eat when I'm sad, bored, stressed or procrastinating. I was at my highest weight during my third year of university. I was so uncomfortable in my own skin. I could barely dress myself without getting short of breath. The back pain was unbearable. I would go out at 2 am and binge on a double big mac meal, supersize it (often get a couple of snack wraps) and scarf it down and hide the bag. I hated myself. My last year of university, my parents sold the house and moved. I moved to a one bedroom apartment. I had almost no money. I could barely buy food. My mum would occasionally buy groceries for me. I lost about 80lbs in about a year. I was gaining confidence and started dating again. I've been with my boyfriend now for 2 years. I gained about 20 lbs back but have been maintaining my weight for over a year. I really want to start losing weight again. I need to. My back is in so much pain. I throw it out at least a few times a year. I feel like my body is failing me, but I know I'm the one failing my body. I have started logging my calories again and as soon as the back pain subsides I am going to join the gym.

If you have made it this far, I am looking for a weight loss buddy. Someone that can encourage and support me and I will do the same for you. Hope to hear from some of you