Diary of a Compulsive Overeater - Day 32

ellelit

BINGED! oh geez...well, i went 4 complete days without bingeing, which is a record for me. yesterday started out amazing. it was gorgeous out, we went for lunch at a cafe, and sat outside on the deck, had the healthy option for lunch, went for a walk along the harbour after work, sat and soaked up the gorgeous sun, got a yummy ice cream cone, went to the store to pick up something for dinner.... and i got a big wedge of triple cream brie, a ring of polish ham sausage, a huge bag of lays, a box of crackers and a 2L bottle of diet coke. went home, and ate most of it. now, i did not "binge" like i usually do, where i eat so much i throw up, but i had to have consumed about 6000 calories in that one sitting. ate almost all the chips, almost all the sausage, the whole wedge of brie, and about 1/2 box of crackers. sheesh. i'm not that upset, just more disappointed that i ruined the happiest day i've had in 6 months by overeating. i think it definitely goes to show that i eat WHATEVER the emotion is. yesterday i was exhuberant. giddy even lol, and everyone around me was as well. it was a great day! but why did i have to put an exclamation point of food on the end of it? here is how it broke down:

breakfast:
1 breakfast bagel
1/2 big cookie

snack:
1/2 big cookie

lunch:
grilled chicken club sandwich on multigrain
1 cup of fries
1/2 cup of ceasar salad

snack:
1 ice cream cone with one scoop moosetracks and one scoop chocolate chip mint

supper:
almost whole ring of sausage
almost whole big bag of chips
large wedge of brie
1/2 box of crackers
2 cups of diet pop

well, writing it down was embarassing. i guess all i can do is move on from this, and make today as good as possible. my best friend and i are going with her sister, our other good friend and her mom to a town just north of us today to see her wedding venue, to go for tea, then out for lunch and then to mini golf and then down to the beach, so in between the fine dining food today, there should be quite alot of activity. i NEVER do anything with anyone on the weekend, but i promised myself that i would try to get out with other people at least once a week. it should be a fun time. it's gorgeous out, so i am going to walk for a half hour this morning before we go out, so i know i get some exercise. here is the food plan for today:

breakfast:
1 cup oatmeal
1 banana

snack:
tea
probably some tea sandwiches like smoked salmon and cream cheese, egg salad
probably some tea desserts like petit fours, some strawberry shortcake, something like that

lunch:
trying for something moderately healthy, probably grilled chicken sandwich with salad.

supper:
not sure, maybe roasted sausaged and potatoes, with steamed broccoli

i'm really excited about today, so it should be alot of fun! i'm really trying to focus on the positive changes i'm making, and trying not to get myself down about the bad night i had. i did so well the rest of the week and should be proud of that. i'm not going to let one bad evening derail all of my other good efforts here is to today.

ellelit

BINGED! oh geez...well, i went 4 complete days without bingeing, which is a record for me. yesterday started out amazing. it was gorgeous out, we went for lunch at a cafe, and sat outside on the deck, had the healthy option for lunch, went for a walk along the harbour after work, sat and soaked up the gorgeous sun, got a yummy ice cream cone, went to the store to pick up something for dinner.... and i got a big wedge of triple cream brie, a ring of polish ham sausage, a huge bag of lays, a box of crackers and a 2L bottle of diet coke. went home, and ate most of it. now, i did not "binge" like i usually do, where i eat so much i throw up, but i had to have consumed about 6000 calories in that one sitting. ate almost all the chips, almost all the sausage, the whole wedge of brie, and about 1/2 box of crackers. sheesh. i'm not that upset, just more disappointed that i ruined the happiest day i've had in 6 months by overeating. i think it definitely goes to show that i eat WHATEVER the emotion is. yesterday i was exhuberant. giddy even lol, and everyone around me was as well. it was a great day! but why did i have to put an exclamation point of food on the end of it? here is how it broke down:

breakfast:
1 breakfast bagel
1/2 big cookie

snack:
1/2 big cookie

lunch:
grilled chicken club sandwich on multigrain
1 cup of fries
1/2 cup of ceasar salad

snack:
1 ice cream cone with one scoop moosetracks and one scoop chocolate chip mint

supper:
almost whole ring of sausage
almost whole big bag of chips
large wedge of brie
1/2 box of crackers
2 cups of diet pop

well, writing it down was embarassing. i guess all i can do is move on from this, and make today as good as possible. my best friend and i are going with her sister, our other good friend and her mom to a town just north of us today to see her wedding venue, to go for tea, then out for lunch and then to mini golf and then down to the beach, so in between the fine dining food today, there should be quite alot of activity. i NEVER do anything with anyone on the weekend, but i promised myself that i would try to get out with other people at least once a week. it should be a fun time. it's gorgeous out, so i am going to walk for a half hour this morning before we go out, so i know i get some exercise. here is the food plan for today:

breakfast:
1 cup oatmeal
1 banana

snack:
tea
probably some tea sandwiches like smoked salmon and cream cheese, egg salad
probably some tea desserts like petit fours, some strawberry shortcake, something like that

lunch:
trying for something moderately healthy, probably grilled chicken sandwich with salad.

supper:
not sure, maybe roasted sausaged and potatoes, with steamed broccoli

i'm really excited about today, so it should be alot of fun! i'm really trying to focus on the positive changes i'm making, and trying not to get myself down about the bad night i had. i did so well the rest of the week and should be proud of that. i'm not going to let one bad evening derail all of my other good efforts here is to today.

Mary24

I've had those days were every thing is going supper great untill dinner time and then go overboard!!!
just hang in there:flowerforyou:

mamaof2girls

I think you are doing great!! Everyone has days like that. Just remember for every two steps forward you take, you are bound to take one step back. Don't let it get you down, it sounds like your forward progress for the week outweighs the backward progress from last night. Plus, you have a great plan laid out for the day. Keep your chin up!:flowerforyou:

Katy009

I just wanted to say that I think you are doing GREAT! 23 LBS lost to-date is a HUGE accomplishment. So don't let the days that don't go so well get you down....focus rather on what you have done on the other days! I hope you have a wonderful weekend.