Avoiding Weight Loss

dpr73

Yeah...I have the problem everyone seemingly wants to have! I don't want to LOSE weight at all! Basically, I was pretty overweight heading into college (200lbs at 5'7) and would often skip breakfast and lunch only to snack a bunch when I got home from school and eat a lot at dinner when I was in high school. Determined not to put on weight (the dreaded freshman 15!) I decided to go to the gym about 4-5 days a week and watch my portion sizes (like not over snacking and eating well throughout the day). I dropped weight by just sticking to these principles and not calorie counting. However, after I lost my first 40lbs I kind of got a little carried away and started calorie counting. It stressed me out more than I needed as a 19 year old college student so I dropped it by the end of my freshman year last year. However, I still struggled to stop weight loss even when I started eating "intuitively" in college, I passed my goal weight by a few pounds. Luckily, when I returned home this summer, my intuitive eating actually helped me maintain my weight quite effortlessly and I felt good about my eating habits and routine (didn't really need to think or worry about what I was eating-I just knew what I was doing). However, this first week coming back from summer has really concerned me. Because I had trouble stabilizing in college I keep on getting scared that the weight loss will continue where it left off last year even though I am eating what I perceive to be healthy and sufficient for my body.

When I was home, I usually ate something like: 2 slices of cinnamon bread, some cottage cheese on top, and some fruit at breakfast, a protein shake after working out, a lunch of turkey on a roll with plenty of lettuce and tomato with some mustard or other good sauce thrown on and another fruit, if I felt like it I would snack on maybe a yogurt between meals, and then I would eat my dinner which was usually a quarter plate meat (except when I had fish), quarter plate starch, and half plate of veggies, then I would round out my night with another protein shake if I felt like it or some fruit.

Now, when I weighed in this past monday (granted this was after a night of pretty heavy drinking and going out to a vietnamese grill place), I was at 139, which was basically maintenance from when I left school 4 months ago. This week I pretty much continued to eat the same way: breakfast was something like two slices of toast with cottage cheese or scrambled egg and some fruit like melon or banana or peach, then a protein shake, then a sandwich of some kind or a wrap depending on what the dining hall was serving that day, then if I felt like it I had a granola bar as a snack, then I would have a dinner like a chicken thigh and a leg (with skin on however the dining hall prepared basically), some grilled veggies (pretty hardy portion that takes up a generous half plate), and a quarter plate starch. If I felt like it I again would have another shake or maybe some fruit with a little pb or even a granola bar. I was perfectly satisfied with this, never felt deprived, never light headed NOTHING. I am not counting calories or anything but to be frank don't feel the need to because my food intake is very satisfying.

However, I still was afraid of unwanted weight loss, the anxiety has been coming in and out of my head all week I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE ANY WEIGHT. I look great the way I am and want to continue down this path. However, I just weighed in today and I was 136lbs, 3lbs down from monday. Do you guys think I lost weight? I know weight can fluctuate but it is bothering me and I really would rather not worry. BTW, I have been going to a registered dietician who has confirmed that what I have been doing with my eating seems great and that I really should trust my instincts going forward.