Realization

MrsMizart

Not expecting any responses - just having a lightbulb moment.

I ate too much grease / oil last week - just a bit on each day, but on Friday it kicked off the IBS big time and I missed a lovely evening out celebrating a friend's wedding :-( The weekend hasn't seen it off yet, despite getting my diet right back on track.

I've had a pain in the coccyx for many months, maybe even a couple of years, initiated by a silly fall off my horse. The short story is, after a bit of googling, that it's Coccydynia. Apart from steroid injections or an operation, the gist is weight less (but don't go too bony!) and do a lot of walking (at least an hour a da) and swimming.

I have high cholesterol. Again, right diet and exercise is required to deal with it.

Various leg joints are not happy. So again, it's lose weight and tone up.

The overall gist, from all angles, is, of course - eat right (for me) and exercise! Unless, of course, I want to live in pain for the rest of my probably-cut-short life.

I'm in it now for the long haul. Even with all the drivers I won't find it easy (stupid brain and lack of self-control!), but time to put aside all the old excuses and crack on. It does matter if I have an off day - for me, there's too much riding on it. I'm about to open up my diary, which is a huge step for me; it's only been open to friends on here. Deep breath.

A new life awaits.

ladyzakis

Congratulations and go for it! We're with you all the way.

I have a stupid brain too... :laugh:

danielleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

best of luck, you can do it!

melaniesilver76

Best of luck!

MrsMizart

Thank you folks :-)

Can't wait 'till this is all a bad dream, when I can look back and wonder why I let it all become so all consuming.

zoeysasha37

Good luck on your journey :-)

Cortneyrenee04

Those light bulb moments are life changing. It's so hard to learn self control... I have to tell myself that whatever ("bad" thing) I'm about to eat, I've had it a million times. I remember what it's like, no big deal. I don't need it. After you say no a few times, the cravings go away- at least for me.

I hope you feel better soon!

MrsMizart

Thank you :-)

I've started. Had a day, including lunch out, without any real urge to have what I shouldn't.

Slightly marred by breaking a wrist (thank you bad mannered young horse!), but managed not to eat things that would have been bad (for me) whilst spending hours at hospital. Must thank all the wonderful staff. Love those ridiculously hard working NHS staff.

EmmaFitzwilliam

Congratulations.

The one thing that helped me most was understanding and accepting that I need to be mindful about my eating and my exercise for the rest of my life.

Diets are geared to a mindset of "I can stop when I hit my goal".

Maintenance is all about not falling into old traps.

For me, while my calories allowed may change, the need for portion control and tracking will not. I'm lucky. My binges are triggered primarily by denial, so nothing is "off the table" for me. I manage my calories to sometimes allow two "servings" of ice cream. I had French toast for breakfast.

Real food, processed as little as possible is your best friend. An 85 calorie apple is, for me, more filling and pleasurable in a different way, compared to a 50 calorie cookie


And really - if we get to have fresh fruit for dessert, this can't be too bad.

MrsMizart

Excellent words, thank you :-)

You're so right, this is a new way of being and this is it for life.