I'm fat...

redslog

Anyone who sees me can tell that in a microsecond. Yep, I'm way,way fat. But, I'm changing.

I had no doubt I was on the fast track to an early death. 365 massive pounds at my highest. I'm not sure how I let this happen to myself. Work, stress, life. Excuse upon excuse. I had them all. I'll start losing weight tomorrow. One more cheeseburger won't make a difference... one more slice of cake. I could have made better choices than the 2-3 pizzas a week I used to eat while on the road for the old job. But I didn't. I could have exercised in all sorts of different way. But I didn't. I don't blame Domino's for making me fat. It is 100% my fault and my lack of discipline.

I've gone from bench pressing 400 lbs. and squatting over 500 pounds to barely being able to climb one flight of stairs. Disgusting. I've fallen a long way. The good thing is you can always get back up.

Well, that time is OVER. I'll be on the path for the rest of my life. This I know. I will stumble but I will not regress. If I do I'll die. I know this.

So, I've started changing my habits. Eating not just better but healthy, check. Exercise, check. Logging my calorie intake, check. It aint easy but it is getting better. I feel better.

365 lbs. on a journey to 190 lbs. This is going to take awhile. I'm down 30 lbs. in about 2 months so I am sitting at 335 lbs. now but I don't want a pat on the back. I don't deserve it.

I was asked how my diet was going the other day and the person looked puzzled when I told them I am not on a diet. This is simply a LONG overdue lifestyle change. It is hard but I am liking it. I feel so much better being down just 30 lbs. I KNOW I'll feel great when I am down 50, 75, 100... But it is a long way to go. I know what I am doing is working but not having seen the scale more for the last 2 weeks is frustrating. I'm not focused on that though because as I sit here typing this I am wearing a shirt that 2 months ago was so tight I could barely get it on. I've gone from bursting out of size 50 pants to actually being able to wear size 46 pants in public. Happy to be back in size 46 pants, my God. How sad is that?

Why did I write this? I'm not sure. I guess to remind myself that when the scale stalls and things are tough and I am craving that pizza. DON'T GIVE UP. Stay on the path. It took me 10 years to get this way, if I can get it off in 2 years I'll be happy.

Also, if I can do it anyone can do it.

Just started today too!!! I will look forward to seeing and hearing about your success. Keep positive and something greater will come! Here's to you friend

ashteinpeacock

You're not fat... You have fat, and you're going to get rid of it! Congratulations for your progress and good luck :bigsmile:

Very well put!

ashteinpeacock

Wow, I needed to read this! Very inspiring. Everything you said was dead on... and instead of saying it is the "ugly truth", i'd like to say it is the "beautiful truth" because saving your own life is amazing! You keep that kind of attitude and you will make it! Congrats!

scintillaa

Welcome to MFP!

ChildrenCryinNCoffee

There are TONS of great people on here!

If you'd like to have a friend who logs daily (even though I'm dying with a Virus *aka* I'm really sick and overly exhausted but I have 4 kids and I have to keep the house in order, lol) and my Food Diary is Public/Open, then feel free to add me.

And you're right, the journey does begin with one step and you started off on the right foot!

kessler4130

Meh lost every bit of respect I could have had at the "used to bench 400 lbs", you should start with being honest with yourself. Best of luck.

Archon2

OP: Good job of your new lifestyle so far.
Sounds like you had the right kind of mental adjustment needed to stick with the program.

Sometimes things just click and the willpower is there to make a change.

MrsMizart

Meh lost every bit of respect I could have had at the "used to bench 400 lbs", you should start with being honest with yourself. Best of luck.

Why do you not believe that the OP bench pressed 400lbs? Just because he can't at this current time? I'm now in the mildly obese range, but I used to be able to do a one arm lock-off on a three finger grip and lower and back up, and that's being honest.

OP welcome and very well done on starting your new life :-)

karnie1974

It is hard. Don't beat yourself up, we all know the feeling!! The main thing is you have taken steps to change which is the hardest part. We all have so much going on in our lives these days that we lose focus on ourselves and keeping fit and healthy. I wish you all the luck in the world with your life change and hope you achieve your goals.

BettJo64

what an inspiring post :happy: I'm fat, too, and I'm happy to meet you I can relate to so much of what you have written. look for my friend request as I'd love to support and encourage you along your journey...and maybe you could do the same for me :bigsmile:

C5North

Meh lost every bit of respect I could have had at the "used to bench 400 lbs", you should start with being honest with yourself. Best of luck.

That is fine. I really don't care what you believe or don't believe. I know what I did. 400 isn't that much I lifted with guys that were way stronger than me back in the day. I only mentioned it to show how far I've allowed myself to fall. Simple as that.

Have a good day.

Bry_Fitness70

Good luck! I'm the same age as you, but have been on a totally different journey - I'm on MFP a lot logging my nutrition and exercise, feel free to friend me if you want some additional support!

MrsHVaughn

You're not fat... You have fat, and you're going to get rid of it! Congratulations for your progress and good luck :bigsmile:

I LOVE THAT. YOU CAN DO THIS!