Looking for other Warriors

LiveMore101

I consider myself to be a warrior. A recovering warrior.
Warriors are people who fight back and have strength. That's what I'm wanting and trying to do.


A little about my story:
In January, I was fed up with my past of weight comments, lack of exercise and abilities, and the way I would stuff my face. I wasn't overweight exactly, but I was getting there. I'm 5"1.5 and I weighed 120 pounds. My goal was to reach 105 pounds by June.
I went too fast though. I'm an all or nothing girl, an extremist. Or so I've been told. I know it's true though.
I went too far. I pushed too hard.
Within 3 1/2 months, I lost that 15 pounds, along with 5-6 more. I was bordering between 99 and 100. That's when people started noticing how thin I was getting. Their comments went from, "Wow, you look great!" to "Don't lose anymore! You're so tiny!"
Some of my family members confronted me about my calorie consumption and exercise. I was advised to see a counselor.
Physically, I was weak. Mentally and emotionally, I was exhausted too. I couldn't continue to lose because it was just too much. I felt like any moment I would drop dead. I was so tired.
So, I agreed.
I've been seeing a counselor now since June. She's helped me out greatly and I've gained around 3 pounds.
Every day is a struggle. Every day I consider relapse again. Or to begin purging, because people would notice if I eat less again.
My family and friends try to understand, to support me. But they never will know what goes through my mind. Half the time, they all get frustrated and want me to speed up my "recovery".
I try to do it for them, but it's still difficult.

I could use support outside of my family, people who might have gone or are going through the recovery stage as well.

Friend or message me if you have any advise or are a warrior as well!

theninamartine

I am here with you! I am 5-5'1 and lost over 30 pounds in about 1,5 months. I weight about 117-118 lbs in July, and in August i weight in on 86 lbs. I only loose more and more, and can't keep it up anymore. I have lost my periods, i'm freezing all the time, i have grown a lot of hair on my arms that look awful. My bones stick out everywhere, and none of my old clothes fit anymore. I can't even look for clothes in the adult-section, and i am 15 yrs and 4 months old!

I gained 1,3 pounds i a week - and then i got anxious and lost it all. I can't do it, that's what my mind tells me. Yesterday, i tried half a toasted bread with the tiniest amount of strawberry jam on. BUT IT WAS A FIGHT! I got so anxious, but i got the bread down, and OMG - the taste. I haven't tasted anything like it in AGES! My anxious thoughts came back afterwards, but i just had to live with it. I found out today that i hadn't put on any pounds since yesterday - and it was OK to eat that toast! I get anxious all the time, but now i really try, but also not.

I feel your pain, and i know what it is like. I live with it now, and no-one understands. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS! I want to be like the others, but i don't want to put on weight again... It's so awful...