new to mfp and media driven weight loss

angelexperiment

Hi! This is my first posting and I have been malingering for about two months. I really didn't know how to post actually! Anywho let me introduce meself.

I am a sahm of 3. I am 34. I am 235 to 240 ish as I keep fluctuating hereabouts. This is my highest weight since I was 18. It was not helped by my most recent pregnancy but o was 230 before I recieved my love of my life.(besides my hubby)

I have pcos and ibs and really have had a hard time losing bc of that. I also have bipolar so my moods get in the way when I get too depressed to do anything. But I have been fairly stable for the past year or so. I do not take meds for anything. I am trying to find my bodies right balance and the right diet to help that balance then ultimately the weight loss.

I am looking at a goal weight of 145 which I have only been once my adult life and it was because I was addicted to meth. Luckily I no longer have that problem. I just have my food problem. I have had some sort of food addiction as long as I remember probably 8. It was then I numbed out with food. And I learned how to binge on food. Although I never did throw up or become anorexic though I did try but just couldn't. So my relationship with food has improved but at times I still have binges and times where it is my only comfort. However I am breaking that and I have learned other coping skills.

one thing I never thought I had was will power. I didn't think I could stop my eating that is til I changed my mind. I want to be healthy and to run around. I want to have those rolls gone. I want to know what it would feel like to be that skinny person at least once vefore I die. Well I am going to make my dream a reality finally. I am not stopping this time. I know this will be the hardest thing ive ever done.( besudes child birth w/o painkillers!) I am ready to be the new me.

Archerychickge

First, you want to get down to the weight you were at when you were addicted to meth.... Please, please, please, talk to your doctor. I have a feeling that it may not be a realistic goal weight for you depending on your height and build. Better to get their input first than to be married to a number that isn't realistic or healthy for you.

Second, It sounds like you have struggled with addictions of one kind or another for a long time. I hope that you are addressing those issues long term with a therapist, and that you will discuss your desire to lose weight with them as well. You don't want to trade one addiciton for another.

Last. You can do it. It takes dedication and committment. From what you said you are capable fo making significant long term changes, so use what you learned in that process towards your weight loss journey. Baby steps.

Best of luck to you!