Diary of a Compulsive Overeater - Day 44

ellelit

so, i managed to get some sleep last night, which was very much welcomed. i am feeling not too bad today, but i look like a purple blowfish lol. ah well. my teeth were really bothering me before the surgery, so i am glad that once they heal i will not have to squuezing pain all the time, for what it is worth, here is how yesterday broke down. and i never in my life thought i would say this, but i am sick of pudding and ice cream lol.

breakfast:
cream of wheat with 1 cup of skim milk, 1tbsp of brown sugar

snack:
pudding

lunch:
1 cup of mushroom soup mixed with 2 cups of instant mashed potatoes. i dont recommend you try this unless you have to. the texture was gross.
1.5 cups of soft ice cream

snack:
3 small puddings

supper:
5 digestive cookies soggified in 1.5 cups milk
1 avacado with salt, all mushied up
3 fusili noodles. i tried, but i ended up just sucking on them lol

snack: 1 cup of softened ice cream

5am snack: 1 pudding

so, i am totally over the mushy food thing, and reaaaaaaaaaaaaaly want something solid. what makes it even worse is pretty much the only thing i can do is sleep, come on the computer and watch tv, and i swear every second commercial is for some sort of delicious food that has to be chewed lol. i'm hoping that tomorrow i can have some poached salmon, as it is pretty soft... here is what i think i might eat today:

breakfast:
2 cups of maple and brown sugar oatmeal
1.5 cups of skim milk

snack:
1/2 cauliflower steamed until disintegrated, mixed with some milk and cheese and purreed

lunch:
1 mashed potato (real this time)
1 cup of mushroom soup

snack:
1.5 cups soft ice cream

supper:
1 avacado, mushed with lemon, garlic and salt
1 cup of noodles and sauce, over cooked and mushed up

i'm being a bit more adventurous today... i get bored really easily and can't handle the monotony of pudding and ice cream... blech!

so all in all i'm feeling good. i'm still doing some research on the core plan for WW and testerday, i developed a week's worth of meal plans and a shopping list. i wont start until june 13, but i can at least start preparing for it and once i can eat i can try out some of the recipes. once i'm feeling better, i'm also going to go through an eating disorder "rehab" developed to help me break out from my overeating patterns and figuring out why i eat for comfort, etc. it should be very interesting. it's extremely structured, but i think it will get me thinking more about the reasons behind my illness. i'm excited.

it's weird.... i was talking to my mom the other day, and one of our family friends, who is 30, like me almost, has degenerative arthritis. the doctors think that by the time she is 40 she wont be able to walk and lift her hands and arms without extreme pain.

when i hear about stuff like this it makes me ashamed that i take my body so for granted. i'm 100% healthy, other than being fat (aside from mental issues), and i dont appreciate the temple that is my body. i dont have any physical diseases, i can walk without pain, and i have no heart or respritory problems, no diabetes etc. and i still don't take care of my body. i'm lucky to have what i do, and i need to start taking care of it, because you never know when you're not going to be able to use your body to its full extent anymore...just made me think..

have a good one

ellelit

so, i managed to get some sleep last night, which was very much welcomed. i am feeling not too bad today, but i look like a purple blowfish lol. ah well. my teeth were really bothering me before the surgery, so i am glad that once they heal i will not have to squuezing pain all the time, for what it is worth, here is how yesterday broke down. and i never in my life thought i would say this, but i am sick of pudding and ice cream lol.

breakfast:
cream of wheat with 1 cup of skim milk, 1tbsp of brown sugar

snack:
pudding

lunch:
1 cup of mushroom soup mixed with 2 cups of instant mashed potatoes. i dont recommend you try this unless you have to. the texture was gross.
1.5 cups of soft ice cream

snack:
3 small puddings

supper:
5 digestive cookies soggified in 1.5 cups milk
1 avacado with salt, all mushied up
3 fusili noodles. i tried, but i ended up just sucking on them lol

snack: 1 cup of softened ice cream

5am snack: 1 pudding

so, i am totally over the mushy food thing, and reaaaaaaaaaaaaaly want something solid. what makes it even worse is pretty much the only thing i can do is sleep, come on the computer and watch tv, and i swear every second commercial is for some sort of delicious food that has to be chewed lol. i'm hoping that tomorrow i can have some poached salmon, as it is pretty soft... here is what i think i might eat today:

breakfast:
2 cups of maple and brown sugar oatmeal
1.5 cups of skim milk

snack:
1/2 cauliflower steamed until disintegrated, mixed with some milk and cheese and purreed

lunch:
1 mashed potato (real this time)
1 cup of mushroom soup

snack:
1.5 cups soft ice cream

supper:
1 avacado, mushed with lemon, garlic and salt
1 cup of noodles and sauce, over cooked and mushed up

i'm being a bit more adventurous today... i get bored really easily and can't handle the monotony of pudding and ice cream... blech!

so all in all i'm feeling good. i'm still doing some research on the core plan for WW and testerday, i developed a week's worth of meal plans and a shopping list. i wont start until june 13, but i can at least start preparing for it and once i can eat i can try out some of the recipes. once i'm feeling better, i'm also going to go through an eating disorder "rehab" developed to help me break out from my overeating patterns and figuring out why i eat for comfort, etc. it should be very interesting. it's extremely structured, but i think it will get me thinking more about the reasons behind my illness. i'm excited.

it's weird.... i was talking to my mom the other day, and one of our family friends, who is 30, like me almost, has degenerative arthritis. the doctors think that by the time she is 40 she wont be able to walk and lift her hands and arms without extreme pain.

when i hear about stuff like this it makes me ashamed that i take my body so for granted. i'm 100% healthy, other than being fat (aside from mental issues), and i dont appreciate the temple that is my body. i dont have any physical diseases, i can walk without pain, and i have no heart or respritory problems, no diabetes etc. and i still don't take care of my body. i'm lucky to have what i do, and i need to start taking care of it, because you never know when you're not going to be able to use your body to its full extent anymore...just made me think..

have a good one

filergirl

You should make a risotto! Or a smoothie. Or some pho. Or some paneer...

Tons of good mushy food out there.

ellelit

risotto!! i didn't even think of that. thank you thank you thanks you!