Rapidly losing heart.

catniss

I'm thinking that consulting a nutritionist (NOT a dietician or whatever they're calling themselves nowadays) might be of some value. They can help you discover foods that are nutrition-rich but won't make you feel overstuffed. It seems that if you don't give yourself enough food, your body will never trust that it will get enough. It makes sense in some horrible, ironic way. My guess is that with enough of the right food you will feel better as well--a positive cycle.

The other thing is that if you're not feeding yourself well, working out so very hard will only be counterproductive. I'm not saying don't do anything, but if at the end of the workout you're exhausted instead of exhilarated you're probably doing too much.
Most importantly--don't give up!! Keep checking back here. Keep posting your worries, your fears, your dreams, your frustrations--even if nobody reads or responds to them, you got them out--just like bad food that's got to come out, bad feelings should too.

Believe in yourself, treat yourself as gently as you would treat your child, forgive yourself and keep moving forward. Even if it's way way more slowly than you would like just keep moving forward. I find that looking at the other members weight loss numbers really inspires me. They don't have the same challenges as me, (and I don't have the same challenges as them), but they're doing it. They're sticking to their desire to become thinner or healthier or whatever and they're working it.

I wish you all the luck in the world. I wish peace and success and acceptance and patience to you and everyone else in this site--including myself....

miriamtorason

Thanks, ladies, I do appreciate the encouragement!

I am learning how better to get food into me, and now that shopping day is neigh (tomorrow!), I'm going to be nabbing a bunch of different snack-type foods as well as the three-squares kinds. This way I can try to keep myself eating a lot of little things and not hit 7:30 with 1000+ calories to go through (which is currently a regular occurrence!). I think that going forward, that will help significantly more than almost anything since figuring out I'd been under-eating for over SIX YEARS (holy WOW is that a long time!).

At the immediate end of the workout, I'm wiped. I just want to sit. I want to stretch, sit and have a very large drink of whatever is very cold. However, about fifteen minutes or so later, I'm more alert, more focused, and much more ready to "face the day" - even if the feeling comes after a workout in the evening. So I think I'm hopefully doing alright there. It's hard. It's *really* hard. Especially since after chasing a toddler all day, the last thing I want to do is try to run or do sit-ups/push-ups with him under foot or on my back. o.O;; But... I'm going. I do it, I'm keeping at it, and I'm looking at it like I look at birth - you can do this, Mama. You ARE doing this!

I think that once the next two weeks are done (we shop in two-week increments), I will have a better idea of how to balance meals out - what I need to eat more and less of, and hopefully how to accomplish that. At this point, I'm looking at this as sort of a stair-step challenge - weeks 1&2, eat enough calories, no matter how they go in. weeks 3&4, turn from three square meals to meals plus snacks in an effort to not be throwing whatever I can in at the end of the day to meet goals. weeks 5&6+, all things before, plus better balancing. Maybe this way I'll not only be able to get my metabolism back, but I'll also be able to start losing weight. I'm hopeful. I'm also hoping that by taking this in chunks, and not in one Big Lifechanging Event, I'll be able to stick with it - it will seem like less of a daunting task, and therefore much more accomplish-able.

Here's hoping! ^_^