Feeling Fat!

downtome

Yes, I am fat, but somdays I feel fatter than others! I have been stuck in a plateau for about 2 weeks now and I have been feeling a bit discouraged but that's not stopping me from my journey to a healthier life of eating right and exercisng! My motivation is still in tact and I'm still inspired to keep going. I am my own worst enemy when it comes to weightloss and not feeling good about my accomplishments. I was replying to a post earlier and just before I clicked post, my ticker caught my eye and it says 30 pounds lost! How can I not feel good about that? Yes, I have a long journey ahead with another 125 pounds to go but 30 pounds?! That is a nice sum of weight to lose in 8 weeks! Sometimes I feel as though that 30 pounds doesn't even make a dent, but that is not true because I have noticed that my nightgowns are loser, some of my shirts are loser and it is noticable to me. I just wish I could feel happier about my accomplishments instead of wishing everyday that I was down 60 or 70 pounds so far. I know one day I will get there and it's going to take time but I have to learn to appreciate what I have done so far as to NOT get discouraged and give up. In the past, just when I would start really losing and start showing that weightloss, that is about the time when I would give up and go back to my old way of eating. I know I'm rambling but I just needed to vent and realize my accomplishments today and share them with you as I'm certain many of you might feel like I do. We just need to keep moving forward and keep on doing what we are doing because in 4 months down the road, I would rather be 20-30 pounds less then more and time is going to pass no matter what.

So heres to our success so far and for staying on the path of a healthier life rather than a path of self destruction! I am so grateful for MFP and the friends I have made who support and inspire me along the way. I could not have made it this far without all of you. Thank you.

Your friend and weightloss pal, Denise

gentlebreeze2

You are doing great and need to be proud of the 30 pounds. Life is hard, and I am my own worst enemy, but... one thing that has helped me cope with "life" is the silver lining attitude. When my daughter was 14 years old, a boy in her class called one day and threatened to kill her. When I saw her getting upset, I took the phone away from her to find out what was going on... and he told me, you're going to have a dead daughter for Christmas. I took all the appropriate steps, contacted the school and the cops, but still it was months before we recovered. Still, out of the really bad stuff, there is always a positive. She was to sing a solo in church on Christmas eve, and did fine. Afterwards, she went outside, and then came back in, and said there is someone standing by our vehicle. So, she became more aware of her surroundings because of this whole episode. Sometimes its a real struggle to find the silver lining, but you just keep looking. My point, life isn't always pleasant, but as long as we learn, and move forward we should hold our heads high. I wish you much success in your journey, and along the way, enjoy the small things and accomplishments.

Debtappe

Good going - 30 pounds is 6 5lb containers of crisco - if you want to think in terms of volume. You say some days you "feel fat" - I've found at those times that something is usually bothering me about my life and it's not something weight related. Either I'm worried or I'm scared, or I made a huge mistake at work. Do a little internal check - anything going on in your life that is dragging you down and impacting your happiness? Besides the plateau, that is.

downtome

Thanks you guys for the encouragment, it is much appreciated. Somedays are just harder than others and on those hard days, looking in the mirror is a time for me to criticize myself and how fat I am. I know I'm on the road to becoming healthier and leaner but you just can't help but to feel down on yourself for letting yourself get here in the first place. Your right, it's probally more of an emotional issue rather than a physical one and it's something that I need to work on. That is why I will not let another man come into my life until I have a grip on personal issues and such. some days I feel so great I could burst, I feel good that I am losing weight and doing well on my journey and happy just to be alive! I guess you just have to accept the negatives with the positives and in the end it will even out. Ok. I'm rambling, sorry but thank you again for the loving support.

Denise