I've been one week binge free! (very long sorry)

Carrie6o6

I am a food addict! All I think about is food, all I need is food, all I want is food. For gifts I asked for food. You you want to make me happy, give me food. If I am cranky and irritable, chances are I am hungry and NEED food. (seriously, when I snap at someone around my sister, the first thing she asks me "Are you hungry?" My answer is "YES I AM NOW LEAVE ME ALONE" and I try not to laugh) Sad isn't it?

I would go good for quite a while.. But every now and then would binge until I was about to puke. Well not every now and then... 2 weeks ago a had a huge crash. I binged everyday on whatever I had, I just wanted food, food food. A week ago I already knew I had the problem, but I admitted to not being able to change it myself. I had no self control.

My turning point. Im a Christian... I go to God with all my problems.... Maybe you are not a Christian and thats fine, but this is how I do it. When I was a sex addict, I had HUGE problems with lust and I cheated on my husband many times before we got married (to me cheating is even entertaining a thought). I thought to myself I will never be able to control my thoughts!! I had stopped other things like having affairs but I wanted to be totaly pure, body, soul and MIND. When ever that little temptation came in and it ALWAYS will, right away I turned to God. I would just start praying to Him thanking Him for things or just praising him. That worked!! I used it with food too. Food is ALWAYS there, we need food to live, but this past week I prayed "Please keep me strong, Holy Spirit I give you the permission to help me, please in any way!" When the food came my way I would pray. Now I have been one week binge free!! I dont have those night cravings that would destroy me anymore... I was astonished by it!! Praying that one prayer wont help, its a choice you have to make daily. Which is another thing that REALLY helped me. ONE DAY AT A TIME! I heard it all the time.. but it never clicked. If I can make it through just ONE day. I did... and then the next, and the next soon its been a week. :bigsmile: Addictions all have their roots. The pastor who was going to help me never got back to me, but my old pastor knew something was wrong and hes helping me a bit and guiding me in the right direction.

Im sorry if this was not the answer you wanted, but this is how I deal with things :flowerforyou: I think im going to start praying and learning about addictions. Then I will really know the cause. I know why I became addicted to sex, I know where the root came from.. and if you get rid of the root, you get rid of the weed. Some roots are deeper and leave bigger holes than others, but I think its totally worth it!

Carrie6o6

I am a food addict! All I think about is food, all I need is food, all I want is food. For gifts I asked for food. You you want to make me happy, give me food. If I am cranky and irritable, chances are I am hungry and NEED food. (seriously, when I snap at someone around my sister, the first thing she asks me "Are you hungry?" My answer is "YES I AM NOW LEAVE ME ALONE" and I try not to laugh) Sad isn't it?

I would go good for quite a while.. But every now and then would binge until I was about to puke. Well not every now and then... 2 weeks ago a had a huge crash. I binged everyday on whatever I had, I just wanted food, food food. A week ago I already knew I had the problem, but I admitted to not being able to change it myself. I had no self control.

My turning point. Im a Christian... I go to God with all my problems.... Maybe you are not a Christian and thats fine, but this is how I do it. When I was a sex addict, I had HUGE problems with lust and I cheated on my husband many times before we got married (to me cheating is even entertaining a thought). I thought to myself I will never be able to control my thoughts!! I had stopped other things like having affairs but I wanted to be totaly pure, body, soul and MIND. When ever that little temptation came in and it ALWAYS will, right away I turned to God. I would just start praying to Him thanking Him for things or just praising him. That worked!! I used it with food too. Food is ALWAYS there, we need food to live, but this past week I prayed "Please keep me strong, Holy Spirit I give you the permission to help me, please in any way!" When the food came my way I would pray. Now I have been one week binge free!! I dont have those night cravings that would destroy me anymore... I was astonished by it!! Praying that one prayer wont help, its a choice you have to make daily. Which is another thing that REALLY helped me. ONE DAY AT A TIME! I heard it all the time.. but it never clicked. If I can make it through just ONE day. I did... and then the next, and the next soon its been a week. :bigsmile: Addictions all have their roots. The pastor who was going to help me never got back to me, but my old pastor knew something was wrong and hes helping me a bit and guiding me in the right direction.

Im sorry if this was not the answer you wanted, but this is how I deal with things :flowerforyou: I think im going to start praying and learning about addictions. Then I will really know the cause. I know why I became addicted to sex, I know where the root came from.. and if you get rid of the root, you get rid of the weed. Some roots are deeper and leave bigger holes than others, but I think its totally worth it!

HappyathomeMN

Way to go! It IS hard not to give in, but you have found your strength, CONGRATS!

BTW- beautiful kids, love the new photo.

mommared53

Good for you. God is always there for us and wants us to come to Him for everything. Keep up the good work. He won't fail you. God bless you.

Mary24

I so need to start praying more for the strength to say no thanks, on a daily basis.
I to am a christian, but still feel so alone in this strugle to lose weight, somtimes i tell myself God ment for me to be fat and if he wanted me to be skinny he wouldent have made me fat.
But I'm trying not to think that way any more, we need to eat to life not live to eat.

Oh an I try to remember this,

If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountian, move from here to there, and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.:flowerforyou:

Carrie6o6

I so need to start praying more for the strength to say no thanks, on a daily basis.
I to am a christian, but still feel so alone in this strugle to lose weight, somtimes i tell myself God ment for me to be fat and if he wanted me to be skinny he wouldent have made me fat.
But I'm trying not to think that way any more, we need to eat to life not live to eat.

Oh an I try to remember this,

If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountian, move from here to there, and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.:flowerforyou:

I used to question God all the time "Why did you make me fat? You could have made me any other way, I wouldnt of cared! But Fat???" And I was starting to think too "Maybe God just wants me this way" But the truth of the matter is, he doesnt. But now I have something I NEED Him for because there is no way I can do it on my own. Now my faith grows stronger and God gets the glory! Its quite exciting! I also learn so many things through it and now I can help my entire family since a lot of them stuggle with it as well.

runnerwithstyle

Great Job!!

SoupNazi

Great oulook Carrie. I'm proud of you.
Just remember that God gives us free will. He doesn't force us to eat junk and he certainly doesn't make us overweight. We bring that on (and most other things unfortunately) ourselves.
Keep at it, girl.:bigsmile:

Carrie6o6

Great oulook Carrie. I'm proud of you.
Just remember that God gives us free will. He doesn't force us to eat junk and he certainly doesn't make us overweight. We bring that on (and most other things unfortunately) ourselves.
Keep at it, girl.:bigsmile:

Yes thats very true. I thought of that after I posted it. Darn our carnal nature!! hahahaha

Mary24

Great oulook Carrie. I'm proud of you.
Just remember that God gives us free will. He doesn't force us to eat junk and he certainly doesn't make us overweight. We bring that on (and most other things unfortunately) ourselves.
Keep at it, girl.:bigsmile:

Yes thats very true. I thought of that after I posted it. Darn our carnal nature!! hahahaha

I agree with the both of you ladys, I just need reminding now and then.
But I'm geting there.:bigsmile: