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ceceliaf

Hi everyone.
I am cecelia and I am a freshman in college. I weighed myself today, unfortunately weighing in at 179.5, which was when I decided I need to track my weight loss again. my senior year of high school, I used MFP most days and lost around 10lbs. It may not seem to be much, but it mattered to me. Anyways, I went away to school in Chicago this fall and lost a bit more weight, and became more comfortable with my body. I then decided to take some time of from school and took care of my grandmother for December and January in Mexico. I was probably around 165, 170? hovering in that area, with some exercise and not tracking any calories. I came home in the beginning of February, and now I am close to 180lbs, which terrifies me. Funny how food pumped full of chemicals in America really add on the weight.

I hope that made sense? I'm kind of emotional and angry with myself that I let it get to this point.
I also hope I'm not writing too much or droning on and on.

Basically, I am starting MFP again and taking it very seriously this time. I am using all the tools to my advantage, including the boards and YOU, haha. You are only young once, and I shouldn't spend my time worrying if my jeans are too tight or dreading wearing a bathing suit! I have some free time on my hands and I am gonna dedicate it to breaking poor habits.

I should also note that I've struggled with self image for a very long time. I stand at 6'1 and I've always been a tall girl with some hips. I was mocked in high school and such, but never really did much about it. There's more to it, but that's for another time, right?

Cecelia.

P.S. I'm looking for someone to help keep me motivated, maybe someone around my age or the same size as me?
Thanks.