Diets.....arrgh

Fab140

Ok, I'm intellegent. I know that it all needs to be a life change and it takes time and blah blah blah blah.....But I just keep gaining weight! I am fed up up with it! My husband doesn't even listen to me any more when I talk about weight or food or whatever because I stick with it for a week, maybe two, and then bam! I fall right off that wagon and on my noggin.

I am insanely frustrated with myself. Because I know, it all comes down to me, my choices. No one can fix it for me. No one can do this lifestyle for me. I have to do it. I have to give myself the kick ing the pants and buckel down and do it.

When I get right down to it, in every part of my life I see at least one thing I have never finished and followed through on. I want to be fit and healthy and sexy with every fiber in my body. SO what the hell??????? I know so much about it all, it even surprises my husband how much I know about nutrition and health and fitness. And yet I don't implement it into my dily life.

I guess a part of me is scared of having to change and be someone who I want to be but don't know if I can be. I afraid to let go of the comfort foods (that raise my blood pressure and make me get flushed and feel terrible) and let go of something I've watched adults do my entire life and have done myself since I was sixteen: drink. I've had a cocktail after work or with my mother or whatever since I was sixteen/seventeen years old. When I went a week without a drop of alcohol, I actually had a type of panic attack and broke down and had a drink.

I know I feel better when I don't drink. I know I feel better when I eat dark leafy things and lean proteins and indulge in a small hersheys kiss in the evening. I am actually back at the exact weight I was when I finally went on the South Beach Diet four years ago. I lost 30 pounds. And I have found them!!!

I'm venting. I know I need to focus and pick myself up by the bootstraps and get inthere and try again. I know that I want it bad enough. I just need to want it bad enough to stick with it. I need this. My husband needs it (he's gone up a pant size in the past month) and he's down about his lifestyle right now too! I know we will pull through this, no matter what....

We're even looking into nutrisystem. I know, it isn't the straight forward approach, but I hate to cook (hence the weight gain!!) and it seems to be a good kick off point. My brother lost 80 pounds on it, which was huge for him. I need to lose 40 to be in a healthy range........

I don't know. right now I feel overwhelmed and pretty disgusted with myself. :noway: :grumble: :noway:

Fab140

Ok, I'm intellegent. I know that it all needs to be a life change and it takes time and blah blah blah blah.....But I just keep gaining weight! I am fed up up with it! My husband doesn't even listen to me any more when I talk about weight or food or whatever because I stick with it for a week, maybe two, and then bam! I fall right off that wagon and on my noggin.

I am insanely frustrated with myself. Because I know, it all comes down to me, my choices. No one can fix it for me. No one can do this lifestyle for me. I have to do it. I have to give myself the kick ing the pants and buckel down and do it.

When I get right down to it, in every part of my life I see at least one thing I have never finished and followed through on. I want to be fit and healthy and sexy with every fiber in my body. SO what the hell??????? I know so much about it all, it even surprises my husband how much I know about nutrition and health and fitness. And yet I don't implement it into my dily life.

I guess a part of me is scared of having to change and be someone who I want to be but don't know if I can be. I afraid to let go of the comfort foods (that raise my blood pressure and make me get flushed and feel terrible) and let go of something I've watched adults do my entire life and have done myself since I was sixteen: drink. I've had a cocktail after work or with my mother or whatever since I was sixteen/seventeen years old. When I went a week without a drop of alcohol, I actually had a type of panic attack and broke down and had a drink.

I know I feel better when I don't drink. I know I feel better when I eat dark leafy things and lean proteins and indulge in a small hersheys kiss in the evening. I am actually back at the exact weight I was when I finally went on the South Beach Diet four years ago. I lost 30 pounds. And I have found them!!!

I'm venting. I know I need to focus and pick myself up by the bootstraps and get inthere and try again. I know that I want it bad enough. I just need to want it bad enough to stick with it. I need this. My husband needs it (he's gone up a pant size in the past month) and he's down about his lifestyle right now too! I know we will pull through this, no matter what....

We're even looking into nutrisystem. I know, it isn't the straight forward approach, but I hate to cook (hence the weight gain!!) and it seems to be a good kick off point. My brother lost 80 pounds on it, which was huge for him. I need to lose 40 to be in a healthy range........

I don't know. right now I feel overwhelmed and pretty disgusted with myself. :noway: :grumble: :noway:

kimber607

Hi

I hear ya!
I recently lost 27 pounds...but I was trying to loose the weight for almost 3 years (since my dd was born)!!
I would do well for a short while...but the thought of giving up my soda, candy etc was too overwhelming

I came to this site in Jan and I don't know what clicked...maybe using the food journal religiously...maybe I was finally fed-up
BUT I stuck with it and the first 1-2 weeks was the hardest...it really does get easier after that and the weight will come off

Good luck!
Kim

PedalHound

I made what I thought was my first serious step in achieving healthy weight-loss last October. I've always been very athletic but I've been overweight my entire life. It has been the source of a lot of shame, a lot of pain, and a lot of grief. I have a very thin mother and a very thin brother and then there was ME. My father and his family (with whom I've never had a relationship) are all morbidly obese and I just assumed it was my destiny. But after high blood pressure affected the end of my second pregnancy I was really afraid and finally opened up to my Naturopath to try to make a change. It lasted 4 weeks. I just didn't have the absolute last ounce of resolve I needed to really do this. I was SO ready but I bottomed out. Then in June for whatever reason I hit a wall. I happened to find this site while I was looking up health and fitness in my area and from that second on it's been golden. I was glad to have the simplicity of this site to keep track of my nutrition but the magical ingredient was that last ounce of resolve - wherever its origin - that fell into place. The difference between last October and now is that now I don't care if I don't get to eat some of the "treats" I used to indulge in. Sure they taste good but this time I don't care. I'm not looking for a reason to have it. Something in my perspective changed - maybe finally wanting this for the right reasons? - but I hit my true rock bottom with my tolerance of my body and my health and that made all the difference.

I know you said that you realize this has to come from within. But it's more than that. I think a lot of people get to a point where they're really ready and THEN they get to a point where it just doesn't feel like there's an option. Success is a lot easier when that second point falls into place.

Good luck finding the key to making this change. It's a toughie. But try to keep going generally in the right direction and keep looking for the key to your own success. It will come!! :flowerforyou: