Newbie used to be a trainer now I gottah train myself! Eek!!

MLE31

Hey everyone
So I used to be a trainer and insanely got to I'd say the pint of obsession I think I really pushed myself to the extreme because eventually I just stopped caring completely. I went from 2-4 hours a day working out to now 0.
Then again I was really chronically ill prior to my training days where I was 70-90lbs max. I never wanted to be thin like that I just had been so ill I got sick everytime I ate like I mean I was passing out and unable to breathe.
Noe that I went from super ill to super insanely fit I'm ting to gradually find a balance.
I no longer have a scale so I don't panic if I go up a few lbs suddenly.
I not go by how I physically feel.
Lately I've been doing a lot better knowing I have to log in here what I'm eating.
But it gets frustrating when I go to my favorite vegan restaurant and I can just put in the name of what I ate. I gottah just break it done ingredient by ingredient that I remember.
I'd like to find a happy medium. Get back to the 110-115 frame I was and I do end up at that size a lot and it's usually the steroids or other mess I'm put on for my health condition that make me retain a bit of water at times. I gottah get to exercising though. I just didn't want to shock my body too much at once with a gradual calorie decrease and then an exercise routine.
I dot know about you guys but I become ravenous after a workout. I can't keep within my calorie restrictions when I work out.
Weird right?
I'll give the calories another week and then kick in sole exercise.
If I feel motivated sooner I'll throw it in sooner rather than later.
Feel free to add me as a friend!
Emily :-)