My name is Clarificity, and I am an emotional eater.

clarificity

I didn't think I was. That is my mom's area, just like antiques and gardening: two things that I have to admit I have come to appreciate in recent years. Wait, what?? Am I becoming my mother!?! OH NO!!! Stop the bus, I want off, this doesn't fit with my young adult plan of cool sophistication. I am supposed to be a svelte 30-something with a cool apartment and a Great Dane. Not a pudgy nerd that craves sugar and fights anxiety with cheesecake. When did this mother transformation happen? When did it even start?!? Ok, I guess it isn't that bad, she is compassionate and tender, hard working and tenacious. Funny, smart, talented. All things I aspire to be. So what she is on the overweight side, and has the habit of unconsciously eating. So what if she has a hard time cooking and ends up snacking. So what? I love my mother, and I do want to be her when I grow up. But I don’t have to fall into the same eating patterns. I can choose to be aware, to experience and enjoy food, to not use it as a crutch. I have joined MFP because I want to address my eating issues. Because I don’t want to have the self-loathing I see from time to time surface in my mother from the struggle she has with her weight. I want to be her, but I also want to be stronger, literally.

Tzavush

Welcome to MFP

jacquejl

Great post, I love your wit! Welcome to MFP :flowerforyou:

lisastrom

You picked a good place to start. Lots of motivation and encouragement found here.

Good luck on your weight loss journey. Don't expect change overnight, take each day one at a time!

StartingOver4Me

You are very good with words!!!

lady_jules

It can be so difficult to let yourself be and let the emotions surface when you realise that you are not actually hungry. But you recognise this - high five!!!

Important - we are spiritual beings living in a physical world, and it sounds from your post that you are recognise this in yourself, so you are more true to yourself than a lot of other people.

XX

chrissym78

OMGosh! I think I am your mom, too! Or at least I was Welcome to mfp, add me if you want.

care28

Welcome! Hope MFP can get you on track. It's helped me so far!

rmeadows71

Great post...Couldn't have worded it any better myself! Welcome to MFP Feel free to add me :0)

X0x0desi

Wow.... This is truly me without the mother thing. Lol. So not all me. Except that I love to overindulgence in food when things are not going smooth. But I woke up one day and said that is it. So I'm here now. Thank u for the inspiration I will keep trotting down this road, well at least until I can run. No more crutches.

daniellemagnussen

thats who i am/ was as well - and then after years of it i finally realized it - now before i eat anything i stop before the first bite and ask myself why i am eating this - am i hungry? or just stressed? or happy or sad? - if the answer is not hungry then i put it down - it sounds simple but it really helped me

delilah122

Hi, Clarificity, it's nice to meet you. I'm you, almost 25 years later. I will be your inspiration because you'll see what will happen if you don't do something about those habits now, while you're young. I didn't believe I had an emotional eating problem. When I was your age, it was the opposite - my anxieties caused me to not be able to eat and I was very thin, then it morphed into overeating.. go figure. Fast forward a generation and I have a bipolar son with serious problems and eating has been my escape. The last few weeks I was doing my best to undo the 50 pound weight loss I worked so hard for the last three years. The hardest thing about living on 1200 calories a day this week is having to confront my feelings, not being able to swallow them, instead. So, I sit here with trembling hands and a grateful heart that there are others who understand and I believe that we can help one another. You certainly sound like an enlightened spirit.. this should be interesting :drinker:

mbgame

I'm the same way.. What has helped me aside from this wonderful ap is everytime I feel like I want to eat and I shouldn't I will do some sort of exersice 30 sit ups 2 min jumping jacks ect. most of the time I will drink water after but if I still want it I will enter in my workout and hopefully the effort would have bought me some calories. Good luck!

mbgame

I'm the same way.. What has helped me aside from this wonderful ap is everytime I feel like I want to eat and I shouldn't I will do some sort of exersice 30 sit ups 2 min jumping jacks ect. most of the time I will drink water after but if I still want it I will enter in my workout and hopefully the effort would have bought me some calories. Good luck!