My Story with an NSV

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I'm posting this more to get it out in the open and to make myself feel good. I've been off for a few days with everything and I felt like I threw everything off.

I'm 21, I'll be 22 May 18. Ever since at least 8th grade I can remember being bigger, no huge, but I wasn't as little as other girls my age or size. In high school i was in between 170-175, I don't remember anything lower than they because I never cared until High School. My self esteem was BAD in high school, like to the point of anorexia, however I always turned to food for my problems so I ended up bingeing. After high school things got better. I went to college and got away from all the high school problems. I met a great guy who liked me for me, not my big boobs!

3 1/2 years after high school I knew I'd gained weight. When I finally decided to do something I was at 197. I finally decided that I couldn't let myself go anymore. Something had to be done about it. I lost a couple lbs and joined MFP at 195 in January of 2011. I had a goal of being about 150 by my beach trip on May12. I am at 180 right now and while I know that losing 30lbs in 2 weeks is NOT going to happen, if I can get to 175 by then I know I'll be happy.

From January to now I have learned so much about myself. I've realized that I won't be the skinny minnie girl I always imagined me to be, not because I CAN'T do it, but because that's not my body type. I was born to have big boobs and a butt. It's taken me a while but I like my figure! I've come to realize that when I'm at my goal I'm going to have one of those hourglass figures! I've got a butt and I've got boobs and I don't need to be upset about that. I know plenty of girls out there that complain because they have no boobs or no butt! Why on earth am I complaining because I have them.

Since joining MFP I've learned more about how I used to eat and what I should eat. I learned I'm not the only one struggling. I'm not the only one going through this journey. I've also learned that there is not ONE PERSON out there like me. I'm the only Pattie like me, there will NEVER be someone else like me. I've learned that because I'm the only me, my body is different and won't necessarily adapt and do things the way others will. I've learned what it takes to get my body in shape, I've learned what works for me and what doesn't. Along the way I've met some great people here! A lot of those people are a big part of my support system.

I just wanted to post my story with everyone and for myself. I'm hoping to post some Before and During photos before I leave for the beach on the 12.

ETA my NSV: This weekend when I got with my family for Easter they kept telling me how proud of me they were and how they could notice a difference. One of my older cousins has been keepin up with me on Facebook when I post something about it. I liked knowing that they were proud of me and that there was a visible difference. AND when I saw a picture of me that day I actually smiled at the picture. I liked how it looked....and I didn't suck in my tummy..lol

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Great attitude Pattie! Keep up the great work!