The GOOD, The BAD, The UGLY.....

abroughton1978

Okay so these first few days have been an eye opener.....WOWZERS, I can't believe how many calories I can consume sooooooo quickly!!!!! Check out my calorie intake on 4/10/11--boy those hot wings, pizza and ranch dressing tasted good, but not for long! I logged it and my eyes popped out and my heart fell as far as it could before it bounced off of all the fat I had intaked and then I felt like crap! For 18 hours I was queasy and just plain out crappy feeling! Oh, boy did I learn the hard way about the the importance of logging everything!!

I honestly have been trying to log everything, the good, the bad, the ugly, which is the first time I have ever logged EVERYTHING I eat. It always seemed like what I wrote on paper was accurate, so I lied to myself by writing down only what looked good, those extra calories didn't matter if I didn't write it down, right?

I am truly starting to gain belief that this system is the best way to tackle the extra loads of potato sacks I have been carrying for most of my life. Also, I can admit now that I am a CLOSET EATER. Yes, I am 32 years old and up until now have always done my cheating, binging, and hoarding while on a FAD diet in private.....what was I thinking that would do for me? I wasn't hiding from others, like I thought....I was hiding from me. So finally, I am holding myself accountable. I am committed to logging everything I eat on this site and I have made my diary public for all my friends to see. Yup! That is right, it is there, I am as naked as a jay bird .......being vulnerable is nothing I am used to (ask those closest to me!), so if I try this (something new) maybe I will get this weight loss thing right?

I have always valued being honest with others....and AM beginning to learn the even more importantly I have TO BE HONEST WITH MYSELF!

Next week's goal in regards to honesty---start looking in the mirror to begin accepting what I have become in order to address where I want to go!